Mohd Faisal Afifi / Nur Asyraf Zai

Faisal & Acap! hah..1st time aku jmpa korg,korg asyik berkepit je(seingat aku)..nmpk innocent je..x sangka yg ko pon minat cte yg aku minat kan,acap? memang susah nk cari org yg minat same cte...

aku mula lepak ngan korg kan? stiap kali rehat,kte akan gi tandas kat blok sbelah...xde kerja je..haha...ble nk masuk f2,aku bg pinjam cd btol? hahaha...aduh...time tu memang lawak ar...korg dua memang x sangka ada benda 'sebegitu' dlm cd tu kan? apa dh dulu ko ckp kat aku,acap? ko buka cd tu dan sket lg mak ko nk ternmpk kan? haha..nasib baik..mati aku nanti...

tengok2,lpas tu,org lain pula mula pinjam...masuk f2,aku dh x tahu gi mana cd tu...samada aku dh buang...atau kakak aku jumpa dan buangkan...apa2 pon,biar la...aku lega benda2 tu dh hilang...

masuk f4,acap pindah...dan tinggal faisal...mcm2 aku bercte ngan ko kan faisal? sori aku x dpt tlg lbih drpd tu...aku pon x cukup berpegalaman lg...akhirnya,ko bersemangat balik dgn sendiri...

faisal...aku memang berterima kasih gle la...spanjang lima tahun kte kwn,ko x abis2 buat aku gelak...

acap,thx atas advice2 ko...ada yg aku ingat lg...ada yg aku dh lupa..sori! haha...

apa2 pon,thx korg berdua atas sgalanya...gud luck tok future! sori if aku ada buat korg tersinggung dlm apa cara skali pon...

Nur Syafiq Nasrun & Abdul Hakim Mazeli

Aku start ngan syafiq dulu...

Syafiq! mcm khai,kte sama kelas waktu form 1 je kan...hah...mcm2 la yg ko buat tok kacau aku dulu...ko pon sama...waktu sej je,ko tentu tdo...dh la ko duk depan skali...haha...ntah mcm mana...cikgu x pernah perasan...bukan aku je,smua org ko kacau...masa form 2,ko pindah masuk cekal...even berbeza kelas pon,ble aku dtg masuk tok time agama,mula la ko kacau aku..."jaring2"...ko bersepakat ngan acap and kahi...kan? haha..mcm2 la ko...

Hakim! nerd yg ada 1 package! haha...bukan aku yg panggil tau...dulu ada org panggil ko tu...aku lupa dh sape...time form 3 memang kucar-kacir sket kan? sori sngt kalau aku buat ko tersinggung time tu...aku pon agak bengap time tu...aku x ckp ngan ko lpas tu sampai la f5 kan? aku malu sngt2...sori ye...

thx korg 4 the memories....thx gak sedikit sbnyk korg telah mengubah aku...thx 4 everything...gud luck in ur future!

Mohd. Khairi Mohd. Zi

Khairi! Orang yg pertama yg 'cool' kwn ngan aku swaktu form 1....mcm mana dh aku pon lupa...mcm mana ko dpt duduk sbelah aku at 1 jujur...emmanuel nk tukar tempat kan?

Ko yg 1st yg aku dpt cte pasal anime seingat aku...aku dulu ketinggalan gle2 dlm bab naruto dan aku baru nk kenal bleach....trimas kpada ko...aku dh maju dlm naruto and sampai ke bleach pon aku jadi super fan...walaupon kte x ckp bnyk waktu dlm kelas time tu,tapi memang seronok ada kwn yg mcm ko waktu tu...aku x ingat tapi stiap kali time rehat,ko menghilang...atau ko lepak ngan kwn2 ko cuma aku x sedar...hahaha...

ada skali ko minta aku teman gi 1 amanah(kot)...tu 1st time la aku mula nmpk muka2 org di atas...hahaha...(jahatnyer bunyik)...ko nk jumpa sape dh...itu pon aku dh lupa...hohoh...

oh2! sori ye pasal kak zafira ngan abg ko tu...aku rasa time tu aku tersilap tafsir...hehe...

dulu,pn azira suka sngt kenakan ko kan? slalu suruh ko bangun baca puisi2 tu...dan time sej,ko slalu suruh aku cover tok ko...ko sorok belakang buku and tdo..hahaha! nasib baik aku leh tahan mengantuk...klu x,kte berdua kena ngan cikgu...

tp ko,memang aku berterima kasih la...ko tlg aku ngan si 'dia' yg aku suka masa tu...ko bg nasihat smua...walaupun time ko prank dia,aku patot defend dia,but aku pon nk tergelak...haha....biarla...x menjadi pon coz tahun kemudiannya,dia diambil oleh sorg kwn aku ni...

masuk form 2,ko naik ke cekal...aku kekal di jujur...sjak tu,kte dh x ckp bnyk dh kan? sampai la tahun ni,kte dh mula jumpa lebih dari sekadar bersalaman...percaya la,aku memang gembira ble ko kata,"x ramai yg aku leh ckp pasal anime mcm ko"...ko mungkin x ingat kot...tapi,thx...

aku memang minta maaf gle kalau aku bnyk buat silap kat ko...aku tahu..aku ada dgr time form 3 ko x suka sngt aku...aku minta maaf sngt2...and aku nk ucapkan terima kasih 4 everything...trimas 4 the memories....trimas 4 the anime stories...gud luck in ur future! keep in touch ye! one last time! afro! haha!

Friends Post

From now on,i'll write bout my experiences with everyone that i met along my chap in BB...i'll start when i get some inspirations..haha

Count On You...

I remember how we felt sittin' by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Hah! Finally! 9 subs have done! only 1 more left! oh! ada satu post yg asyik2 tertangguh...nak masuk dua bulan dh kan? hohoho...actually...aku x tahu nk tulis apa...coz aku dh slalu tulis pasal ko...u're the only one who didnt notice...well...let's start from the beginning...f3 rite? some say it started when we were f3...i dun actually remember...org tua kan...hahaha

start f4..mcm2 jadi...we fought and fought non-stop...we were so close of becoming enemies arent we? everything i did,u will get mad...and everything u did,i will get mad...although my intentions was good,but i admit it...i express it in the wrong way...

after a lot of spying...a lot of thinking...i finally give in and decided that wut i was doing was wrong and i should apologize..u finally forgive me in the end of last year...

i tried to move on...i tried and tried...but i still couldnt get u out of sight(jahatnya bunyi)...

at the start of this year,2010...i secretly hope to be in a seperate class...sori...but my feelings were mix at that time...but PSS came and c us,the f5,and said that we shall be in the same class as last year...a part of me wanted to jump! but a part of me told me not to...and not to expect anything...i juz go on as usual...i dun know how...but bcoz of u...i started to tie back my frenship with my old 'crush'...i started to c other girls in new ways...and after several months of advice given by a few people...i started to be happy...then,suddenly....'he' came and started to disrupt my plan and crush ur heart...that was on the day that u were having a cold and u hold my hand with ur blazer...we were skipping physics when u told me that 'he' doesnt seem to want to contact u...i was like,"wut is his problem?"...but i didnt say anything...i thought that it might hurt u or my cover will be blown...seriously,it takes a lot of planning to do my acting tau! thx to syaheela and jega...and almost everyone who knew...

then...dtgnya...our trip to KLCC...the day before that,we kinda fought rite...i spoke something that hurt ur feelings huh...well...it kinda hurt mine too...during our trip..all that i was thinking was to walk with u...but my plan failed...coz u kept running off on ur own...well,i thought that u were still mad...so,i back off....

to tell u the truth...that's why i always looked so serious in skool....i dun want anyone to know wut i was feeling...

moving on...while we were having our pps camp...seriously...i was really worried when somebody told me that u cried on that friday nite...same goes when we were having our camp ibadah...but i couldnt say much could i? haha...but it's ok though...coz u were surrounded with many people who loved u and since last year,i always had the thought that u dun need me...so,it's not my job to comfort u...though i wanted too...but i cant...haha...

then,one week before our raya holidays...u called me in class...and explain that 'he' has crush ur heart...trust me,if i was holding a glass,that glass would break...to c u in that condition,trust me...it hurts...i always wanted u to be happy...even if it means if i have to watch u from afar...i felt really stupid at that time coz i couldnt say or do anything...i could only watch...but u got better...but i was still worried and kept a close eye on u...finally..the big moment...

our trials...u were acting weird from the start...but...i always thought that u were weird so i didnt pay any attention to it....up until the physics paper...i thought in my head,"wut is wrong with this woman?"...haha....then,bla...bla...bla....i finally understood...

that's the starting huh?....up until now....let's juz c how far we can go...

Now I’m about to give you my heart

But remember this one thing

I’ve never been in love before

So you gotta go easy on me

I heard love is dangerous

Once you fall you never get enough

But the thought of you leaving

Ain’t so easy for me

Don’t hurt me

Desert me

Don’t give up on me

What would I wanna do that for?

Don’t use me

Take advantage of me

Make me sorry I ever counted on you

1,2,3,4 to 5 baby, I'm counting on you

Understand I’ve been here before, thought I found someone I thought I finally could adore

But you failed my test, got to know her better so I wasn’t the only one

But I'm willing to put my trust you, baby you could put your trust in me

Just like a count to 3, you can count on me and you're never gonna see

No numbers in my pocket.

Anything I’m doing girl I'll drop it for you

Cuz you’re the one I'm giving my heart to but I gotta be the only one

I really hope you understand

That if you wanna take my hand

You should put yours over my heart

I promise to be careful from the start

I trust in you with love in me

Very very carefully

Never been so vulnerable

Baby I'll make you comfortable

Rain...

June’s lies and the truth in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
Nestling close to one another, warmth; I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” you said, forcing it upon me and then you said goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

Endlessly ringing; the merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me
If I close my eyes they will only grow surrounding me at a distance; your laugh

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? Why does it chooses me who has nowhere to escape to?

Time intrudes on the new morning I finally found
The direction I face is not the future, I kept chasing after the past

You, who gave me a new start by your consolations and the hateful and cowardly me
It’s about time… Fumbling, my troubles spill down my tired cheeks

Eyes that don’t want to know the past and fingers that can wash it all away
Scars heal at a gentle pace; at an unreachable distance that seems to be within reach

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? I wonder if it’s okay to let myself drown in it

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end
While we quietly nestle together with warmth under the umbrella I hold

Invisible...

I can feel you all around
In the silence I hear the sound
Of your footsteps on the ground
And my heart slows down

Something's changing deep inside
All my hopes are comin' alive
As we're fading into the night
I can see your eyes

You're all that i can see in the darkness

Believe we make this

All that we want it to be

We can stay here forever

Cause when we're together

Stuck in this fantasy

I don't want to leave..

So now I'm..

I'm waiting for the moonlight
So I can find you
In this perfect dream
Don't think that you can
Hide there in the shadows
Girl your not invisible
Your all that I can see..

*This is juz a start-up...the official one that i should write for you,may take a while...haha

Trials!

Fuh! setakat ni memang susah gle ar! BM pon dh susah...x lg BI...aduhai...xleh ckp ar pasal sub lain...memang habis pening kepala!

x habis lg kira ni...physics lusa...habis la...physics antara yg aku lemah...tapi kena la cuba dulu sblum give up,tol? haha...tapi...walaupon masa exam,minda aku x pernah tenang....

benda2 ni x pernah kluar dari minda aku....ada gak benda2 baru yg aku sedar...ada yg kwn yg aku percaya...jadi makin x percaya...ada gak beberapa yg tbe2 jadi yg aku percaya...tapi,mcm biasa...mayb aku yg silap...aku x tahu cmne nk kekalkan persahabatan...hampir smua,aku cuma hancurkan je...aku x pandai jaga kot...

sori nadia...aku x leh teruskan ngan 'dia'....aku hargai apa yg ko dh buat tok aku slama ni...tapi...aku x rasa aku leh teruskan...

esok gi rumah pirol lak...harap aku leh teruskan...

doakan aku berjaya 4 trials ye...

Wouldn't Change A Thing..

It's like, she doesn't hear a word I say

Her mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like all she wants is to chill out

I'm serious

She makes me wanna pull all my hair out

I'm always in a rush and interrupted

Like she doesn't even care

I'm always trying to save the day

Just wanna let my music play

She's all or nothing

But my feeling's never change

Why can't she try to read my mind?

I try to read her mind

It's not good to psychoanalyze

She tries to pick a fight to get attention

That's what all of my friends say

You, me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

When I'm yes, she's no

When I hold on, she just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

but you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

Hah..she keeps being in my mind...she makes me worry...why can't she tell if she's mad? I've juz gotta be patient...

The holidays...so far..boring...but i was looking for it...i juz want some peace and quiet...but it's only gonna last for 7-8 more days? Shoot...Raya is coming...hope i can make it through...hah..so i went to the book fest at kllc today...wow..cant believe we had to buy a ticket juz to get in...it was a late invitation so i went with my 'sis'...well...she didnt have any one to go wtih her...so,i went with her instead...that place reminds me of something...sad though...anyway...funny thing was,she change my family's mood...tq diyanah...i was looking something to lighten up my family's mood...didnt think it was her...so,i walk with her all around the exhibition...finally,i found the latest darren shan book..at 1st,i didnt think i want to buy it...but,she said,it's best to buy even if it reduces only bout RM10...well,the book was expensive..but im the type who likes to buy the 1st and last collection...i want to keep it as a memory..after buying the book...i went home but she stayed to wait for her bro...

That's the story so far...boring rite? Im not into this love this so much anymore..after i've been crushed so many times...but im still looking...like this girl im constantly thinking bout...well,like in David Archuleta's new song, "There's something bout love that breaks your heart...it sets you free..There's something bout love that tears you up...you still believe..but don't give up..There's something bout love.."

Sambutan Merdeka

Wah...memang meriah betol hari ni...mcm2 persembahan...1st...a. samad said(yg akmal pernah panggil future aku) dtg tok beri pengalama dia...sorg yg dh berumur 70 tahun...mesti la tahu bnyk...memang best ar sketsa pn zaleha...apa dh ayat haziq..."buka puasa dgn madu,belum cuba belum tahu"? haha..mcm2 la diorg tu...pastu masuk philharmonic punya group...fuh...dia memang menawan...tergamam aku kat situ...lepas smua tu,masuk kelas...

smua pakai menawan2...thx kepada yg memberi pujian kepada aku...korg pon nmpk menawan...ambik2 gmbr sampai la habis skolah...well,kecuali time physics yg memang tension...but cikgu tu berniat baik...dia minta hafal 10 ayat dlm masa 10 min...bunyi gle kan? tapi kte dpt buat gak...separuh..haha...but,cikgu terima je...kemudian main scrabble ngan hannah..agak kekok la coz aku memang x bnyk ckp ngan dia...tapi dia insist..join jela...satu benda je aku menyesal...x bergmbr ngan dia..aduhai...aku x nk nmpk desperate...tu aku buat bodo je...tapi aku dh wish gud luck kat dia smlm...

You don't run with the crowd

You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
That's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that can compare

You got something so real
You touched me so deep
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You've won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

What makes you different,makes you beautiful
What's there inside you,shines through to me
In your eyes I see,you're all I need,
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

You don't know how you touched my life
In so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me

Toumei Datta Sekai...

What did I really lose on that day?

I forgot long ago

We lost sight of each other in the twilight

What's more; we were unable to return

Somewhere our brittle, broken hearts

Try to hide behind strong words

Try to hide

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

Even in a world where you no longer exist, I will run

Passing through each day's pain

Passing through

The scent of grass of the broken glass in the “wounded” summer

Hey, where are you now?

In the time you have hated muddy water which was clean before

I have grown up

The reflection from the surface of the water was wobbling

Even now, the light still shines

The light still shines

Farewell, we waved hands that day

What had changed you

And yet, I’m still living

Overcoming my urge to cry in the night

What did I really lose on that day?

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

I’ll make the world run

Someday when I see through the future

Seeing through

Not good enough?

Hah...."another day,another dollar"...that's wut spongebob used to say..haha...but 4 me...another day,another adventure...keep on searching and searching...everyday wut i c is the same...im tired of it...the feeling of helplessness...it as though im not even alive....

there's a saying i found a year ago..."to live without a purpose is the same as being dead.."...i dun know...it's juz getting worse and worse...it's hard enough dealing with the fact that one of the person u trusted the most,lied to u...and even change...it's ok if it is 4 the better...but this...i dun know...can i judge? coz even i've change...people change...as nat says...that's true...im kinda dissapointed..i never expect to have a fren like this...fine...if u're in love...i can deal with it...if u want to put ur love one more than ur frens...that's fine 2...but plz...dun overdo it...it's been years...all those years...i didnt trust u...and when i try too...u broke that trust...i still have the others though...but still...u were one of the person i can talk childish-like...well...pirol is childish but he still more mature than me...but the others..i still feel like im not good enough 4 them...i keep saying to those people..."get the hell out of my sight..." or "i rather be alone than to become like u guys.."...but really...deep inside...im juz looking 4 a fren...i know i've got lots of them...i dun know...am i juz not grateful? everyday...i try to do the best that i could to talk to them...i would be lying if i said it is easy as pie...

even today...we had tadarus al quran...as usual...im shaking to my bones...i was searching 4 shafeeq..but he came late..i cant make uztaz wait..he was getting impatient...i saw a few of them...juz reading like it was nothing...and their happy too...probably im in the wrong side...even though some of them r not that hard working...they still can read the quran...probably that's wut makes their hearts so cool and steady...unlike mine...im hard working in my studies but not in the quran...i dun have the right to judge...probably im juz jelez that they'r so happy...probably...i rather be alone than to think that im juz an annoyance to them...

Such people...

Baru balik dari Segi...wut a long day...gi pagi...seminar start kul 11...aduh...memang bosan....xpe ar...at least 'awek' aku ada...nat smua sampai lewat...so,diorg duk belakang...excited gak...coz dpt jumpa kwn baik aku! Andrew Foo Ju Jin! Hahahahah...miss u man..."u dah makin tinggi la"...x guna ko..haha...tahu ler aku rendah...masuk petang...sakit kepala....shimata....xpela....habis tu,diorg smua nk balik ngan bas...nat tbe2 kata "bye"...aku pon.."ek,nk balik dh?"...yela...baru pkir nk berseronok sket...tapi ni la nasib aku...so,xpela...aku stay ngan nadia & sasha sementara tunggu parents aku...bnyk gak benda yg aku dpt tahu...masuk kepada topik sbenar...

Memang aku dah perasan ni lama...aku agak fed up la gak...ada la beberapa org aku jumpa over the years...some of them said the same thing to me..."aku kwn ngan smua..."....well...tell u wut....that's juz bull! i've seen how ur type socialize...if u want to use those words,plz la...org mcm ko x layak la...kalau nk tengok yg layak...ambik la pirol sebagai contoh....dia memang kwn ngan smua...yg hot ke...x hot ke...popular x popular...smua dia kacau...mcm nat ke...dia kacau smua...sentiasa ngan lawak2 dia...baik cmtu....memang la...kalau nk ikot....aku pon bukan la socialize ngan smua gak...tapi jgn samakan aku ngan org mcm ko...aku pendiam...aku layan smua...tapi disbbkan personaliti aku memang cmni...aku memang x ckp bnyk...tapi...walaupun aku x ckp bnyk...aku tetap ada naluri yg masih berfungsi...aku pon xde hak nk komen...tapi,one day...ble smua ni jadi pada ko balik...ko akan rasa apa org mcm aku rasa...

Next...

Pe...memang aku geli tengok sorg ni pegang2 kwn dia...kwn aku sorg lg kata yg mamat ni suka buat laki lain jelez..cuba teka jelez ngan apa? jelez yg dia dpt peluk2...pegang2...kaum berlainan....plz la...org bodo je akan jelez....memang...aku mengaku...aku pon ada pegang2 perempuan...kebanyakkan x sengaja...ada yg sengaja...tapi yg sengaja tu pon skadar tanya khabar je...yes...dosa tu aku tanggung...but at least...aku x cuba buat org tu jadi bernafsu...atau buat aku jadi bernafsu...bukan nk kata aku x bernafsu...well...smua bernafsu...betol x pirol? cuma cara kita kawal je la...kalau skadar pegang tok berjabat...well...kdg2..aku x sedar aku buat coz aku slalu berjabat pon ngan kwn2 terdekat....tapi x slalu...yes...memang berdosa...but...aku x mcm dia...kalau nk banding...benda yg paling 'teruk' aku lakukan pon,duduk sama kerusi...yes...dosa2....but,ada batasan gak aku tetapkan...aku x rasa dia ada batasan...aku bukan nk kutuk ke apa...tapi apa aku tahu...cuba la pkir...kalau kaum lain tengok kaum kte mcm mana...mcm penceramah BM tadi kata...org melayu...pakai baju kebaya ketat2....aduhai...btol kata dia...baik x yah pakai langsung...aku mengaku laki zaman skrg dah terok...mayb ble kte besar nanti,aku akan jumpa ramai lg org mcm ni...aku pon bukan perfect sngt...dan aku x leh kata berpegangan tu salah/x salah...tapi cuba la ada batasan....yg aku bengang ble kwn aku kata yg dia nk buat laki lain jelez...sape nk jelez? dia nk sampaikan apa? dia boleh rpt ngan perempuan sbb dia tarik2 pipi diorg...pegang2 diorg? buat aku pening je...sori sket...dengar sini...kte buat kwn dngn hati kte...bukan dngn nafsu....kte biar dia kenal kte dan kte kenal dia..."a fren can only do so much"...so,memang baik ko pkir balik apa ko dh buat...dan ko akan dpt jwpn kepada soalan yg ko sering tanya org lain...aku boleh lg tahan ngan sikap ko...tapi kalau ko mula ngan 'sikap' ko...baik aku jauhkan diri...

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7 Things

Mcm2 la hari ni...went to petrosains...it was fun..it was years since i last went there..brings back memories...faisal was funny..he kept singing the dinosaur song..hahah..ble nak balik tu,our last ride..oh shoot...im the only guy..memang aku takot org pandang serong..tapi aku bukannya nk buat perkara x senonoh pon..ko leh trust aku sham? haha...but...had a migrain so i couldnt really enjoy...i knew from the morning that somethings is going to happen...it's juz like a hunch...hah...cant believe it came true...my hp strap went missing...damn it...i've search everywhere...i've retraced my steps but still couldnt find it...sori diyanah i had to drag u along...damn it...hah..it was sasuke's strap...very rare to be found...it's a gud thing it's juz a rm10 strap...i hope i can find a new one in johor...damn...and it was so young...thx 4 the ones who accompanied me along the visit...faisal...suresh...diyanah....i dun really like big crowds...someone gave me this opinion a few months ago..and probably,it's true...no matter...i dun really like when people say im 'sombong'...really....u guys should check how i am before saying anything...i like to be called a 'thinker'...i think a lot...even the most stupidest thing i could think millions of questions...and that's where i hate the most...still,with my low self-esteem,that's why im so quiet...but it depends...if u can talk to me,then i can talk to u...im not saying that im a god that u should approach...juz that...it really makes me happy if anyone..juz anyone...came & talk and joke around with me...i really appreciate it though...i know i shouldnt be doing this....it's not rite...many have told me 2 juz 4get bout her...even melissa said,"she's not worth of ur effort..."...my heart should be for another girl,like she said...even so...am i juz being stupid? one fren of mine keep saying gud things bout her...but the others would juz say..."i dun want to c u hurt.."...damn it...i wonder wut should i do...cut all ties with her? im not that kind of person...i've seen the effects on wafa years ago...i dun think i want to let anyone to feel the way she did...she does make me happy when i text her...but she already found a boyfriend 4 god's sake...i keep thinking...should i tell her how i really feel? no...she could never know coz she could never understand...and im still sitting her like a stupid wall...hoping for something that's never going to happen...we're to much the same(although i distinctively deny that,but almost everyone says we r),that's why i cant do anything...wait,can i? im still thinking bout it...here i am...admiring from afar...

I probably shouldn't say this

But at times I get so scared

When I think about the previous

Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it

It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain

But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear

The 7 things I hate about you

You're vain, your games, you're insecure

You like me, you love him

You make me laugh, you make me cry

I don't know which side to buy

Your friends they're jerks

And when you act like them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

You make me love you

It's awkward and silent

As I wait for you to say

But what I need to hear now

Is your sincere apology

And when you mean it, I'll believe it

If you text it, I'll delete it

Let's be clear

Oh I'm not coming back

You're taking 7 steps here

And compared to all the great things

That would take too long to write

I probably should mention

The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you

Your touch, your eyes, your old Levi's

And when our eyes met, I'm hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry

But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hand in mine

When we're intertwined everything's alright

I want to be

With the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do

You make me love you

If...

If the rain had stopped

That day

I might surely have just walked past you

If the bus had arrived

At its usual time

I wouldn’t have met you

If that instant

Had been slightly different

We would have walked on separate paths of fate

*I always want to watch

The same future together with you

Let’s look at the same stars

At the same spot

I wonder if I am present

In the future you imagine for yourself

I want to look up to

The same sky with the same feelings

Our ways of talking and acting

Are really similar

It’s like if we have always known each other

Mailing each other at the same time

Thinking about the same things

We might have been bound together by a red thread

We fit so well together, like if

It was decided by chance right from the start

I believe we are fated to be together

I wonder if I am present

In the future you imagine for yourself

I want to look up to

The same sky with the same feelings

So we may always walk

On the same path, hand in hand

Even on days filled with tears

And on sunny days

Another week passed...nothing much...the librarians r finally retired...i was getting tired doing the work while studying...but i cant relax in the library anymore..hah...like i said..nothing much...last saturday was the day the new naruto movie was released...oh...if only i was rich..haha...well...nothing i can do..juz have to wait for it to come here...the ending theme really touched me...not sure why...i've been more down than usual this few days...i know why...i juz dun know how to react with it...yesterday was a schooling day..not to my suprise...many didnt came...only bout 5-6 people...well...i had fun...hahaha...bnyk cte...then,after school..i went to tuition...again,we were the only two present 4 the class...well,i had fun...she was sweet...and nice...hahaha

Makan sedap...

Wah...bulan ni memang 'kaya' aku...hampir tiap minggu makan makanan sedap je...17 july lalu...ada 2 jamuan...1st...jamuan bilik ekses..hohoho...aku bos....memang la best...makan2 jap...dating jap(hehe)...sblum gi ke subway....jamuan prs lak...kat situ mkn kek coklat yg memang besar dan sedap...wah2...haha...tapi keseronokkan smua tu ada harganya...nk tahu apa harganya? hah...balik2 dari jamuan tu...sakit kepala nk mampos...memang x leh bangun...boleh memang boleh but sakit gle la...migrain gle sampai kul 11...otak sakit sngt sampai aku teringat kata2 pirol,"ko potong je kepala ko"...hah...itu...aku sakit sngt coz aku cuba x mkn ubat...aku x nk rosak buah pinggang..nampaknya x berkesan...otak aku sakit sngt rasa mcm nk meletus..terpaksa mkn...akhirnya dlm kul 12...dah reda...hah...datang2 skolah...kerisauan mula timbul balik...sape yg dekat ngan aku,fhm la nape...seminggu kemudian...masuk jogathon...pe...mula2 pkir x nak lari...coz aku takot ditinggalkan sorg2...tapi aku nampak nicholas pon lari..aku pon teman la dia...at least aku pon dpt pengalaman...seronok gak...dating lagi(hehe)...sblum balik...esok tu lak bday adikku zombie...makan sedap lagi...haha...aku harap nk 'berisi' sket..but..x berkesan...aku sampai je kat rumah diyanah,ramai dah balik...wah...memang aku dah lewat gle la...xpela...dlm 10 min,mel lak dtg...at least ada la org aku leh borak...but izudin perlukan dia lg...so,lepaskan je la...aku mkn sorg...but diyanah fhm perasaan aku,so dia datang borak ngan aku...kenalkan diri aku kat mak dia...mak dia tanya,"ini putera? oh2...mana bodyguard2?"...pe...aku nak tergelak je...haha...aku kata la nama aku ni sekadar nama je...xde special pon...then,time tok balik...x guna jega...ko curik 'isteri' aku...kluar mlm2 kan? kena ko jega..hahaha...masuk skolah...mula timbul balik...haih...aku ni mcm2 akn pirol? hari ni gi sambut bday wafa lak...terkejut gak ble dijemput...aku ingat aku xkan coz aku slalu 'type' tu...aku pon terpkir la...nk gi ke x nak...aku takot aku xde kwn je...but...aku terpkir,ni last year kte...so,gi la...x kisah la apa perasaan aku ble aku sampai kat sana...janji aku datang ikhlas coz nk buat dia happy...pe..memang romantik gle la...haha...pirol2...x sangka aku...nak je aku pasangkan lagu naruto masa tu...makan2 jap sblum balik...memang kalau aku boleh,aku nak stay lama...but,aku x leh biarkan ayah aku menunggu...family kan...dia lagi penting...maaf sangt2 wafa...hadiah tunggu sebentar...otw...haha...jumpa ayah aku,dia sedap makan kat mahbub...haiyo dia tu..beli goreng pisang lagi kat tepi jalan tu sblum gi BV balik...sampai BV,beli kuih muih lg...wah2...ayah aku tanya,"nak apa2 x?"..aku kata nk kuih bakar but beli 1 je...coz takot jadi mcm last time,aku pelik 5,aku x sempat mkn,semua kena kebas oleh....ntah la sape..hahaha....kemudian,ambik kakak aku kat MAS...baru sampai rumah...balik2,mkn ubat...sembahyang jap..tido...then bangun balik tok sembahyang maghrip lak..pe..bangun2 tu memang aku rasa kebas...mcm 2-3 hari lepas...maybe effect ubat2...ni salah satu aku suka ble aku sakit...ubat2 tu buat aku x rasa apa2 dan buat aku x pkir apa2...care free je...tu sbb aku x betol sket khamis lepas nat...haha...mai ada kata,"syg aku xde awek"....dh nk buat cmne? aku x pernah ada ciri2 yg 'korg' nk...tipikal la...korg slalu nk yg cool yg hensem...betol x? aku ni pendiam...x hensem dan x cool...so? salah aku ke aku xde awek? skrg org banyak superficial je..kalau aku nk ada awek pon,biar la pemikiran dia mcm kwn amoi aku sorg ni...dia slalu pkir apa yg paling baik tentang aku...dan ble aku down,dia la yg akan risau...dia berckp ngan aku pon sbb dia tahu aku ni berperasaan mcm mana kat dalam...oh...korg jgn2 main2...aku ni nmpk je baik,mcm2 aku leh lakukan...dan aku masih bengang ble org tipu aku...lg2 org yg aku trust...kalau yg aku x trust buat pe nk peduli kan? rasa mcm diambik advantage la gak...but...biar la...aku ni memang cepat marah but aku cepat reda gak...so,kalau ko nk lupakan,aku pon boleh lupakan...ni aku ada buat beberapa minggu lepas...aku x pkir skrg begitu bermakna lagi...but post je la...

Here I am
There you are
Why does it seem so far
Next to you is where I should be
Something I
Want so bad
Know what's inside your head
Maybe I could see what you see


Gotta keep on believing
That everything takes time
I'll make up any reason
To make you mine
If you're staying or leaving
I'll follow your lead
So why keep pretending
Open your eyes
I can be what you need


Any kind of guy you want,
That's the guy I'll be
Turn myself upside down
Any kind of guy you want,
You know I'll agree
Turn your whole world around

Any kind, any kind
Any kind of guy you want
You decide
Change your mind
I will be there
Won't you try
One more try
Be my any kind of girl
You decide
It's alright
I will be there


You seem so hard to know
Say goodbye, say hello
Then you say that it's time to go
Changing my point of view
Everyday something new
Anything to get next to you


Let me know if I'm getting through
Making you understand
If it's wrong I'll try something new
Don't look away
Cause I'm here to stay
If it's a game
Then I'm gonna play

*khas tok seseorg yg disayangi di BB

Hero

Hah...since the ibadah camp..i've been feeling strange...juz a few words and it has got me confused...last week it begins...pirol told me something really disturbing..since then,i dun think i want to talk to girls anymore...im to gullible...people take advantage of me...i dun mind helping but if he/she has another purpose...like juz to use me to satisfy their needs...now,that...wut piss me off...i thought bout it for days...im not mad anymore though...but it still there...someone talk to me...her words are more then confusing...either be stupid and act like nothing ever happen...or be smart and distant myself....distant myself wasnt the best idea...but being stupid is...well...stupid....but i guess...humans r like that...it's ok..i'll talk with her when it is time...

well...today was something...i went for 2tion as usual...i dreamt bout this girl...i was really excited to meet her...when i arrived...well...standard human reaction...i got a bit shy...well...im always shy with girls...but this is..well..more shy...haha....if u know me,than...u'll know how i reacted...she was shy to...from the outside that is...it's been a long time since i felt being more shy with another girl...it was also then that i had my real convo with her...thx though...it was...interesting....

I'm no superman,
I can't take your hand,
And fly you anywhere you want to go,yeah
I can't read your mind,
Like a billboard sign,
And tell you everything you want to hear,
But I'll be your hero

Serching high and low,
Trying every road,
But if I see your face,
How will I know,yeah
I'll put my trust in fate,
That you will come my way,
And if it's right,
It's undeniable,

I can be everything you need,
If you're the one for me,
like gravity,
I'll be unstoppable,
I, yeah
Believe in destiny,
I maybe an ordinary guy with heart and soul,
But if you're the one for me,
Then I'll be a hero,

So incredible,
Some kind of miracle,
When it's meant to be,
I'll become A hero, oh
So I wait,
Wait,
Wait,
Wait for you!

Ibadah(?) camp...

Hah...memang letih gle la camp tu...maybe camp yg paling letih...aduhai...mcm2 la explain..mlm tu...ckp pasal dosa2 yg dilakukan...abg tu minta renung...rasa bersalah la gak...bnyk budak nangis...x tahu la hati aku dh keras sampai x nangis...tapi...memang rasa la bersalah...tapi nk buat cmne kan? kte x lepas dari buat dosa...ble mkn...nmpk kwn2 mcmm sedih...risau la gak...so...tanya la sket...x nk kata apa but rasa mcm perlu....sorg kata sedih tengok pic2 acheh....sorg lg...nmpk mata merah...but aku kenal dia ni jenis cmne...so,x tanya la....cuma wish slmt mlm je..laki mcm rilek je...so,x tanya la...

pagi,bangun qialmullai(betol ke eja?)...memang mengantuk...nasib baik x tertido masa sujud mcm masa darjah enam...boleh la tertido..pelik2...gi mkn jap...mel tanya,ok x? dia tahu2 je ble aku sedih walaupon aku sendiri x sedar....ada lagi ceramah...ramai lg budak nangis...aku admit...ada air mata keluar sket...aduh...memang jadi mangsa abg tu...malu gle...mel kata aku nmpk mcm nak nangis..ye ke? haha...cuak je kot...mandi jap..sbb sorg ni bg penampar kat belakang aku...kira mcm wake up call la...haha...'thx' sham...aku wangi lg apa waktu tu...then...gi la mandi...nmpk sorg ni masuk surau sorg2....aku dh penat berdiam diri...aku pon msg,ok ke?...dia jwb ok..but nmpk sngt x...risau la gak...akhirnya balik...anyway...aku admit...sejak beberapa minggu ni pon aku jadi secretive sket...aku tahu...ko kata private...juz hear this...maybe i can help? actually...i want to help...wednesday lepas...slapas yg aku sedih gle selasa tu...amoi ni kata,never keep it in urself...i know im not in the position to talk coz aku pon masih memendam...aku ada masalah sendiri...but aku x kisah tinggalkan masalah2 aku tok tlg sape2...lg2...kwn2 aku...it's ur choice...i wont force u...but,im rite here waiting for you,ok?

"...If I ask, will you answer? ...It's your problem. A deep, deep problem. I have no right to know. I don't have a method of stepping into the depths of your heart without getting it dirty. So I'll wait. When you want to talk, when you think it's okay to talk... Talk to me. Until that time, I'll wait." - Rukia Kuchiki

What You Mean to Me..

Before we start going to the main point of this post,mari bercerita sket...patutnya tulis minggu lepas...tapi x sempat...kata ini je la...seminggu lepas,memang aku rasa x bersedia nak datang skolah...bukan sebab rasa x study...tapi...aku cuma x bersedia dari segi rohani...rasanya...ada kat skolah yg perasan...tapi agak susah coz sejak kebelakangan ni....aku makin...ah...x yah cte la part tu...mari start ngan cte ari ni...bangun pagi tok gi bengkel fizik...pe...memang mengantuk...itu la..salah aku gak tido lewat smlm main internet...aduhai...xpela...gi je la...datang2 skolah,smua pandang aku pelik...aku pon pelik ar...then,nat tanya,"amir,asal ko pakai baju lain dari yg lain?"...aku pon..."huh"?...x sempat nk jwb...sori nat...ala..bukan xleh pon...datang kat teratak,gi kat mel,tdo...kemudian,masuk la dalam audi....pe...memang boring la....nasib baik naim ada...at least dia buat aku terjaga...kemudian...rehat...gi la kantin...toyol tu,aku pandang dia je tergelak...gle la dia tu...aku gi tandas sblum kembali ke audi...

tambah lagi mengantuk aku...aduhai...sabar je....msg jap...sblum kembali fokus....akhirnya smua dah balik...tinggal budak2 laki je...sblum diorg nk balik...diorg berkumpul kat dpan gate...azim naik ngan khadamul...qayyum naik ngan hakeem...dana sorg...azrul...x ingat...haha...masa mul nak kluar...pe...memang kelakar...dia dah la tengah pegang plastik air sirap dlm tgn dia...nk kluar kat pintu kecik tepi telefon skolah tu memang tinggi sket...dia tekan motor sampai jatuh airnya! hahahaha...nasib baik tumpah sket je....bukan setakat ni je...azim dah naik ngan mul atas motor...azim nk pass air kat faisal...tbe2,mul tekan motor,azim sampai nk jatuh! hahaha...cuak azim...muka jadi trauma...hahaha...ble tulis memang mcm x kelakar...memang kena berada kat situ la tok 'feel'...hahah

akhirnya tinggal aku ngan puga...fuh...bnyk benda aku belajar pasal dia....dia pon ada masalah dia ngan org lain rupanya...kesian kena tinggal dia sorg2...tapi terpaksa balik...balik2,mkn kfc ngan family...haha...tapi spanjang balik ke rumah...aku terpkir je pasal dia ni...ok,skrg masuk point sebenar...

sbenarnya...otw gi skolah...kat kawasan bangsar...nmpk la dia tgh lepak ngan kwn2...alamak...memang la 'down'kan aku...nak je aku msg dia waktu tu..tanya dia sihat x...dia nak kluar mana...dah nk tekan nama dia dlm hp...alamak...pkir balik...kalau aku libatkan diri dlm benda ni...akan tambah lg terok...aku tutup balik hp...kepala tersandar kat kerusi...ayah nmpk mcm nk tanya something....tapi dia x berkata apa2...dia tahu serba sedikit...tibe2...terpasang lagu yg ada dalam satu movie yg aku tengok beberapa ari lepas,StarStruck dalam kepala aku...nak je aku kata...aku nak bersama ko...aku perlukan ko...alamak...xleh....coz dia x mungkin faham...well,aku pernah buat dia cuba fhm...tapi dia lak yg kata mcm2...maybe perempuan memang cmtu...pilih yg hensem...yg cool...yg talkative....smua tiga aku xde....mayb tu sbb dia reject aku...well,thx to her...i felt an endless hatred...i told pirol that i want to get my revenge one day...but sham once told me to never get my revenge...i wont get anywhere....maybe she's rite...probably...si dia yg hancurkan aku...destroyed me until nothing's left...well,congrats to her..coz she was successful...i never thought i'll be in this position...hahaha....weird....i cant believe im saying this,i kept on complain and complain...kept on blaming her...how stupid can i be?

probably coz i never like anyone like i like her...i dun want to use the word 'love'...coz im still young...i dun even know wut love is...or maybe love is stupid? or im stupid? well wutever it is...i can be sure of one thing...i've never felt this lonely...probably coz i've never been in this kind of situation...a boy met a girl...she showed him kindness...the boy fell for the girl...the girl seems to like the boy..the boy didnt understand his feelings...the girl didnt understand that the boy didnt understand...had a fight...finally,the boy was left with nothing...the girl juz moved on with another boy & another skool...bla bla bla...a fool's story...diyanah once asked me,"kenapa ko x nk share?"...aku x terkata....Syaheela pon pernah kata,jgn pendam sorg diri....mayb aku dah pendam lama sngt...aku dh susah nk luahkan...atau hati aku je dah jadi batu? mayb aku tengah tunggu tok sorg ni....atau...aku cuma tengah tunggu kwn2 aku tok fhm...maybe dia dah berubah tanggapan terhadap aku...mayb aku je yg perasan dulu2...aku masih ingat lagi satu lagu yg ko kata ko suka dulu...ble kte kluar satu ari tu,ko bg aku dngr kat philips mp3 ko...tapi apa yg aku tahu xkan berubah...perasaan dan memori aku ble ko buat aku bahagia dulu...aku akan lepaskan ko...dan bergerak ke arah lain...memberi peluang kepada kaum perempuan skali lg...aku sayang ko selamanya(sbg kwn la skrg)...

Can't blame you, for thinking
That you never really knew me at all
I tried to, deny you
But nothing ever made me feel so wrong

I thought I was protecting you
From everything that I go through
But I know that we got lost along the way

Just know that, I'm sorry
I never wanted to make you feel so small
A story is, just beginning
We'll let the truth break down these walls
Oh, yeah, yeah
And every time I think of you
I think of how you pushed me through
And showed me how much better I could be

You make me feel like I'm myself
Instead of being someone else
I wanna live that everyday
You say what no one else will say
You know exactly how to get to me
You know it's what I need
It's what I need

Here I am, with all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
You brought me closer
To who I really am
So, come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me

Hari Guru 2010 / Di Persimpangan Dilema

Wah2..lmbt sket post kali ni...hari guru yg berjaya dilaksankan lebih kurang 4 hari lalu memang lain dari yg sblumnya...mayb gak coz kelas aku buat persembahan tok hari guru kali ni...well...aku x berharap nk berlakon...dpt jawatan backstage pon jadi la...hahaha...bukannya buat kerja pon...but syukur berjalan lancar smua...

5 DEDIKASI!

datang2 skolah memang berdebar la gak..1st time buat show...harap smua berjalan lancar je...jumpa nat...haha...tengok2 nat pon sakit...tu ar nat..aku dh kata jgn duk ngan aku...tengok sape sakit...hahaha...jaga2 la diri ye...then,hujan rintik2...en khairi suruh buat kat mini dewan...pe...memang panas cmtu..pn siti sarimah akhirnya kata "hujan sket je"...jadi smua kumpul balik...kelas aku kumpul kat teratak kjap sblum bergerak ke belakang perhimpunan...pe...tarian Nicholas,Andrew dan adik Nicholas tu,No Stress,memang bestnya! smart gle tengok...tapi diorg nyer kena gabung ngan kelas akunyer..mayb coz diorg dh buat bnyk sangat tarian...babak pirol memang best! lagi2 tambah lagu kelakar/sexy! hahaha! sori ye pirol! masuk babak cik teoh pula...wah2.."dissapear2!"...aku memang xkan lupa la dia mengjar aku dulu...sbb dia gak aku dpt A dlm sej PMR....akhirnya habis...babak kredit tu la malu gle..aku x biasa buat benda2 cmtu...merah muka aku ble Neetasha panggil nama...then...lepak ngan sham ngan faiz....sambung tengok tarian 'puppet' iklil lak...fuh! memang diorg dh lancarkan! smart gle...ada la budak2 bising kata diorg bajet la...but aku rasa diorg jelez je tu...then kteorg diberi rehat jap...lepak ngan wafa...bukan main happy aku bg dia hadiah...ble ada org ajak dia nk belanja,aku bela ar...lepak ngan toyol jap...bincang ngan dia hal2 'penting'...hahahaha...x abis2 ngan syg dia tu...ish..haha....aku slalunyer menyampah tengok org couple2 ni...tapi ble ngan diorg...aku rasa kelakar...hahaha...mayb coz diorg berdua kwn aku...sesuaila...toyol patut terima laki yg terima dia..then sambung perayaan...MUSICAL CHAIR!

pe...pertama kali tengok cikgu2 pon mcm budak2 gak...tolak sana sini...berebut kerusi...hahaha...akhirnya pn ooi menang...aku nk en zaki menang...ntah la...aku admire dia...memang kelakar la dia...jalan satu kerusi ke satu kerusi...sengaja x nk bg org duduk ngan cpat..hahaha...dh abis tu..aku lepak kat bilik kaunseling...x tempat nk pergi...ini la jadinya ble kwn baik sorg pengawas...mkn kek..fuh! sedap! thx kpada sape yg belinya...aku ingat nk lepak ngan 'dia'...tetapi aku pon sakit...aku masuk bilik kaunseling...duduk...pkir..."pe...bestnya kalau dpt lepak ngan dia skrg"...aku bnyk day dreaming...aku mengaku...haha....aku duk je situ tengok mel,sham ngan nadia buat kerja...nk tlg...tapi mcm xde mood..haha...side effect ubat...otak jadi woozy...ehm...tapi smua tu hilang ble jadi risau...sape x risau ble org yg kte ambil berat tbe2 jatuh sakit...yg pelik...simptom dia aku pon pernah mengalami tapi bukan masa demam...masa mula2 'matang' dulu...skrg...x tahu la...x ingat last kali ble kena....mayb ada kene mengena ngan blood pressure gak kot...well...tahu ler...dia kata jgn risau...well...kte kena la work in 2 ways...aku jaga ko...ko jaga aku...hahahaha...agak x malu kan??? sampai2 masjid,tengok2 xde air lak...aduyai...tercungap-cungap cari air...nasib baik sempat...balik2...terus tdo...tapi memang x tenang...asyik2 batok....pe...menyeksakan...sampai la skrg...tapi aku balik2 rmah tu...tengok2 ada file lagu dlm received files aku...pelik...sape pula yg letak ni...kalau dia,memang make sense...but...agak pelik kalau dia nk bg...kalau sorg lg tu nk bagi...itu lagi x mungkin...ntah la...tapi sape yg bg tu,memang pkir gak pasal aku...ntah sape....tadi aku keluar ngan family...aku asyik ternampak bayangan 'dia'...ehm...aku rindu dia lebih dari aku sedar walaupun dia dh tinggalkan aku...teringat lak lagu ni...

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Sori la...

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox


The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and for deeds left undone. ~Harriet Beecher Stowe, Little Foxes, 1865


An apology is a good way to have the last word. ~Author Unknown


The only correct actions are those that demand no explanation and no apology. ~Red Auerbach


Apology is a lovely perfume; it can transform the clumsiest moment into a gracious gift. ~Margaret Lee Runbeck


Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ~Paul Boese


It's easier to ask forgiveness than it is to get permission. ~Grace Hopper


For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness. ~Author Unknown


It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend. ~William Blake


True friends stab you in the front. ~Oscar Wilde


Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things. ~Author Unknown

You can make up a quarrel, but it will always show where it was patched. ~Edgar Watson Howe, Country Town Sayings, 1911

Ehm...ni...brape bnyk aku ltak ni tok ko...i was being insensitive...im sori if i hurted u...

Replying messages...

Ini yg dh lama x ckp tentang ni...salah satu benda yg aku paling pantang...org x bls msg...susah sngt ke nk bls? lg2 ble ada kredit...tlg la jgn bg alasan mcm,"dh lewat ble aku sdr msg tu,buat pe nk bls"...klu xde kredit pon,tlg la bgtahu kat skolah ke,guna hp family member lain ke...ini buat bodo je...aku bukan main risau nk tlg buat kerja smua...projek...but buat bodo je...lg satu,org yg reply satu patah je...pe...memang aku benci gle ble org buat cmni...susah sngt ke nk bg reply yg panjang sket? ni jwb...spatah2 je..."x","ye","apa"...fine..tu mayb hak org tu...tapi pkir la gak perasaan org yg dia bg msg tu x boleh ke? aku susah2 tulis panjang2...risau...ambik berat...tengok2...kecik ciput je korg bls? haish...memang naik angin aku...fine la...aku tahu aku jenis yg x ckp bnyk...jadi korg x nk borak lama kan? korg boring ngan aku kan? ikot la..but for once,tlg la pkirkan org lain untuk seketika...

"Her Most Beautiful Eyes"

A few days ago..i watched one of the episodes of Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X..i got bored..so i juz opened up the channel...it was about Kenshin(the hero)'s fren,Sanosuke trying to save someone he loves Sayo from Tuberculosis...

it's quite sad though..the song Her Most Beautiful Eyes by Taro Iwashiro were playing the background...something hit me...how far would someone go for the one he loves...wow...love makes u do crazy things...i thought bout it...i once did crazy things...but in the end...nvm..i juz thought that can i do all that again...or im juz afraid of being dissapointed again...

Overboard...

It feels like we’ve been out at sea
So back and forth that’s how its seems
And when I want to talk
You say to me
That if its meant to be, it will be
So crazy in this thing we call love
Now that i've got it that i just cant give up
I’m reaching out for you
Get me out of here in the water and

I’m overboard and I need your love
Pull me up
I cant swim on my own
It's to much
Feels like I’m drowning without your love
So throw yourself out to me
My life saver

Never understood you when you say
Wanting me to meet you half way,
Felt like I was doing my part
You kept thinking u were coming up short
It's funny how these thing change
Cause now I see

It’s supposed to be some give and take I know
Bu your only taking and not givin' any more
So what will I do?
Cause I still love you
You’re the only one who can save me...