Alone?

Guess im back where i started a few months ago...almost everyone around me is really testing my patience...i trust people too fast...now look where it lead me? alone again...one by one they all just left...when they met me,they all said the same thing,"u can share your problems with me" or something similar to that...

but they all just left me like a fool...even the new people i met did the same thing...once they've found new friends...well,u know what im going to say...im too naive...what frustrates me is that cant they just keep their word? suddenly a new person came up to me and said the same thing...can i trust her? what i know,my heart is dying and dying and my trust towards people is becoming less and less...or maybe i just dont know how to handle my problems...everytime i have one,i just run away from it...now people said that im too sensitive...that really hurts...cause it came from a trustworthy friend...

probably i let them in too fast...

I Should Go..

Here we are

Isn't it familiar

Haven't had someone to talk to

In such a long time

And it's strange

All we have in common

And your company was just the thing I needed tonight

Somehow I feel I should apologize

Cuz I'm just a little shaken

By what's going on inside

I should go

Before my will gets any weaker

And my eyes begin to linger

Longer than they should

I should go

Before I lose my sense of reason

And this hour holds more meaning

Than it ever could

I should go

I don't mean to leave you with a trivial excuse

And when you call tomorrow, I'll know what to do

Happy or Unhappy...

I really wish that i could turn back the time sometimes...i've forgotten about my ex...but now i cant be near her either...im afraid to meet her...im afraid i'll hurt my friends...when i think about it,im happier now...but what's the cost? sometimes i think like everytime im present in some situation,the situation will only end up to be worse than it's supposed to...

maybe i cant really be happy...maybe it's not just my way...i wish i could turn back the time where i didnt know all the girls yet...my feelings are just getting in the way now...at that time,i dont have a single feeling...just cold...now i think im too close for comfort with some of them...or maybe im just still dissapointed with my results? maybe i shouldnt get too close...

My Heart Will Go On..

My Heart Will Go On...one song that has captured many hearts around the world...even mine when i was just 3/4 years old...even when i was little,this song ease my mind a bit...and it helped me to sleep...the song was created for the movie Titanic that came out in 1993...

i havent really saw the movie...i only saw bit by bit...and a week ago...there was a trailer that this movie is making a comeback...and there was one part,where the song goes,"you're here,there's nothing i fear" and that part was playing a clip where leonardo dicaprio said to kate winslet,"don't you ever let go" then kate said,"i would never let go"...it really captured my heart at that moment...

i really wish that someday,someone would say the same thing to me...there were people who said it before,but they have gone away...the song is really sad in a way...but it is one of my favourites...