Home...

Haih..wut a drag...i wanted 2 take pics yesterday....but i had a migrain so i didn have the energy..but i did manage 2 take a couple of pics...i thought of something while i was on my bed...all the things that has happen in the years...all the fights...there's a truth in the saying that time heal all wounds...physically the healing begins in moments and our body does all the work...but when a relationship is injured...some wounds heal in a day...others lay 'there' 4 the rest of our lives...sometimes we only need to heal oursleves...and sometimes our true work lies in healing others...and at that moment...when we sleep the subconscious mind takes over...our dreams can reveal wut's disturbing us in our waking hours...and there r rare occasions in a state between sleep and consciousness when the thing that's most trouble us can emerge...the thing that's most trouble me? well,i c it...and some people have gave me advice...their words was a comfort...but i still felt lost and confuse...i knew that they were worried,not sure how to help me...all of us r hoping that answers r on the way...where is the road back 'home'? i cant seem 2 find it...they always say a heart is not a whole without the one who gets u through the storm...in other words im still blind by the 'fog'...wherever someone thinks of u,that's where u go home 2...is that true? i cant find a home without the 'one'? but no matter how much we think of someone,there r some who wont return...it's a very diffivult thing 2 have ur thoughts reach someone...yet,if u give up and there's no one 2 think bout that person,well..that's just sad...then there really wont be a place 2 return 2...they kept saying to let her go but how can i when she doesnt tell me truth yet? so...no matter wut anyone says,i just have 2 keep thinking of her and create a place where she can return freely at any time...until i know the truth...anyway,Selamat Hari Raya and Happy hols 2 all my frens! Sori if i hurted u guys in any kind of way...

2nd chances...

Damn...M...looks like i cant continue this...i was rite...i shouldnt have been so close with u...i knew that u had another guy...wut a fool...looks like i was 2 excited getting someone that looks like she cared 4 me,that i got my feelings get the best of me...and inside i betrayed my fren...i shouldnt have...it's a gud thing my fren told me bout wut u said bout me...i have 2 let u go...4 his sake and mine....looking at the bright side,at least i wasnt sooo close to u...if i do,it would be hard...but 4 now,i just want 2 lay low...enough bout her...i want to rite bout a certain someone...she and her fren(s)...from wut i've obeserve,not many who wants to get close 2 her...well,it is partially her fault...but still,we cant judge a book by its cover...sometimes,sori 2 say,but she can be a pain but sometimes,she can be a fren who understands and helpful...those people who hates her,just doesnt seem 2 give her a chance...from my point of view,that's how teenagers nowadays...not many who's willingly to give a 2nd chance...those people who hates her,just c her as 'gedik'...like her fren...but unlike her,her fren was hated coz everyone thinks she wants power...but maybe there is a purpose why she does all that...i stood by them 4 some years now and i learn that they're not the type of person everyone thinks...well,1 of 2 that is...but still,she just need some guidance...like me,i was kinda weak..im still is but im stronger than last year...i mean physically...akmal help me with that...when we were f2,almost every guy hates me coz i was 2 soft...i was diff...akmal did tease how weak i was...and sometimes he even left me 2 be with the other guys coz he was ashamed with me...i was often left behind...in the dark corner...but eventhough they treated me that way,i still hold on 2 him...2 tell the truth,i hated almost all the guys back then...they din want 2 be near me coz i was diff...i was soft unlike the other guys...but as the months go,i help u...and ur fren naim...i still gave u guys a chance eventhough u treated me like i was expandable...looking back,i din regret giving them a 2nd chance coz now,u accept me 4 who i am...as the months go,u treated me as an equal especially when we got our pmr results...as u began to accept me,so does naim...followed by che faiz and the others...but that was the guy's part...as 4 the girl's...i was ignorant and stupid back then...probably still is but i've grown from the past...like the guys,i hated almost all the girls after zakwan got hold of my 1st crush at the skool...S...wut a funny story it is if i looked back...but then,W came...and she help me to make peace with the girls who i fought with at the moment...things change and i had 2 leave her...i started to hate girls again...i couldnt even trust any girl at the time...there r some girls who still stood by me...but i never thought 2 find someone...i couldnt trust her when we 1st met...i was just in 2 much pain...nothing goes through my head...but as time past,she help me 2 trust girls again...she was just wut i needed...she helped me to 4get W and moved on....she became my best fren...if i hadnt trust her at the moment,i would still be in pain...well,i was always in pain...but u get my point...me and W r still frens f.y.i.....but nothing has ever been the same...me and her r still frens why? coz i gave her a 2nd chance...i dun want 2 be in the cycle of hatred any longer...like before...i dun want to change to somebody who holds hatred in his heart and change to somebody who still holds a grudge or something like that...it's true,people goes through their lives hurting others and being hurt...but it's not easy 4 us to hate 1 another...but still,people try 2 hate 1 another coz they just cant stand one another...one of the humans weakness...our weakness...if that keeps up,the future generation will be even worse...we have the power to forge our own destiny...so let's make a bright one...if a fight occur between people,they cant simply just do nothing and 4get bout it coz they cant...when they cant,the grudge that they have from the fight,is still resides in their hearts...they need 2 give a chance 2 solve wutever is between them so they dun have anymore grudge against each other...this is just from my point of view...if someone hurted me,or vice versa i would do anything to get peace again...if someone hurted me,of course my heart would be wounded...wouldnt any heart is? the only thing that can cure a wounded heart is love...from giving people a chance,love will come..or is it vice versa? wutever the case is,we have to give people a 2nd chance no matter how we hated them...when giving someone a chance probably we can change him/her to somebody new who we can learn to love...or create a bond with...like me and best fren did...that's all that it needs...a 2nd chance....