Makan sedap...

Wah...bulan ni memang 'kaya' aku...hampir tiap minggu makan makanan sedap je...17 july lalu...ada 2 jamuan...1st...jamuan bilik ekses..hohoho...aku bos....memang la best...makan2 jap...dating jap(hehe)...sblum gi ke subway....jamuan prs lak...kat situ mkn kek coklat yg memang besar dan sedap...wah2...haha...tapi keseronokkan smua tu ada harganya...nk tahu apa harganya? hah...balik2 dari jamuan tu...sakit kepala nk mampos...memang x leh bangun...boleh memang boleh but sakit gle la...migrain gle sampai kul 11...otak sakit sngt sampai aku teringat kata2 pirol,"ko potong je kepala ko"...hah...itu...aku sakit sngt coz aku cuba x mkn ubat...aku x nk rosak buah pinggang..nampaknya x berkesan...otak aku sakit sngt rasa mcm nk meletus..terpaksa mkn...akhirnya dlm kul 12...dah reda...hah...datang2 skolah...kerisauan mula timbul balik...sape yg dekat ngan aku,fhm la nape...seminggu kemudian...masuk jogathon...pe...mula2 pkir x nak lari...coz aku takot ditinggalkan sorg2...tapi aku nampak nicholas pon lari..aku pon teman la dia...at least aku pon dpt pengalaman...seronok gak...dating lagi(hehe)...sblum balik...esok tu lak bday adikku zombie...makan sedap lagi...haha...aku harap nk 'berisi' sket..but..x berkesan...aku sampai je kat rumah diyanah,ramai dah balik...wah...memang aku dah lewat gle la...xpela...dlm 10 min,mel lak dtg...at least ada la org aku leh borak...but izudin perlukan dia lg...so,lepaskan je la...aku mkn sorg...but diyanah fhm perasaan aku,so dia datang borak ngan aku...kenalkan diri aku kat mak dia...mak dia tanya,"ini putera? oh2...mana bodyguard2?"...pe...aku nak tergelak je...haha...aku kata la nama aku ni sekadar nama je...xde special pon...then,time tok balik...x guna jega...ko curik 'isteri' aku...kluar mlm2 kan? kena ko jega..hahaha...masuk skolah...mula timbul balik...haih...aku ni mcm2 akn pirol? hari ni gi sambut bday wafa lak...terkejut gak ble dijemput...aku ingat aku xkan coz aku slalu 'type' tu...aku pon terpkir la...nk gi ke x nak...aku takot aku xde kwn je...but...aku terpkir,ni last year kte...so,gi la...x kisah la apa perasaan aku ble aku sampai kat sana...janji aku datang ikhlas coz nk buat dia happy...pe..memang romantik gle la...haha...pirol2...x sangka aku...nak je aku pasangkan lagu naruto masa tu...makan2 jap sblum balik...memang kalau aku boleh,aku nak stay lama...but,aku x leh biarkan ayah aku menunggu...family kan...dia lagi penting...maaf sangt2 wafa...hadiah tunggu sebentar...otw...haha...jumpa ayah aku,dia sedap makan kat mahbub...haiyo dia tu..beli goreng pisang lagi kat tepi jalan tu sblum gi BV balik...sampai BV,beli kuih muih lg...wah2...ayah aku tanya,"nak apa2 x?"..aku kata nk kuih bakar but beli 1 je...coz takot jadi mcm last time,aku pelik 5,aku x sempat mkn,semua kena kebas oleh....ntah la sape..hahaha....kemudian,ambik kakak aku kat MAS...baru sampai rumah...balik2,mkn ubat...sembahyang jap..tido...then bangun balik tok sembahyang maghrip lak..pe..bangun2 tu memang aku rasa kebas...mcm 2-3 hari lepas...maybe effect ubat2...ni salah satu aku suka ble aku sakit...ubat2 tu buat aku x rasa apa2 dan buat aku x pkir apa2...care free je...tu sbb aku x betol sket khamis lepas nat...haha...mai ada kata,"syg aku xde awek"....dh nk buat cmne? aku x pernah ada ciri2 yg 'korg' nk...tipikal la...korg slalu nk yg cool yg hensem...betol x? aku ni pendiam...x hensem dan x cool...so? salah aku ke aku xde awek? skrg org banyak superficial je..kalau aku nk ada awek pon,biar la pemikiran dia mcm kwn amoi aku sorg ni...dia slalu pkir apa yg paling baik tentang aku...dan ble aku down,dia la yg akan risau...dia berckp ngan aku pon sbb dia tahu aku ni berperasaan mcm mana kat dalam...oh...korg jgn2 main2...aku ni nmpk je baik,mcm2 aku leh lakukan...dan aku masih bengang ble org tipu aku...lg2 org yg aku trust...kalau yg aku x trust buat pe nk peduli kan? rasa mcm diambik advantage la gak...but...biar la...aku ni memang cepat marah but aku cepat reda gak...so,kalau ko nk lupakan,aku pon boleh lupakan...ni aku ada buat beberapa minggu lepas...aku x pkir skrg begitu bermakna lagi...but post je la...

Here I am
There you are
Why does it seem so far
Next to you is where I should be
Something I
Want so bad
Know what's inside your head
Maybe I could see what you see


Gotta keep on believing
That everything takes time
I'll make up any reason
To make you mine
If you're staying or leaving
I'll follow your lead
So why keep pretending
Open your eyes
I can be what you need


Any kind of guy you want,
That's the guy I'll be
Turn myself upside down
Any kind of guy you want,
You know I'll agree
Turn your whole world around

Any kind, any kind
Any kind of guy you want
You decide
Change your mind
I will be there
Won't you try
One more try
Be my any kind of girl
You decide
It's alright
I will be there


You seem so hard to know
Say goodbye, say hello
Then you say that it's time to go
Changing my point of view
Everyday something new
Anything to get next to you


Let me know if I'm getting through
Making you understand
If it's wrong I'll try something new
Don't look away
Cause I'm here to stay
If it's a game
Then I'm gonna play

*khas tok seseorg yg disayangi di BB

Hero

Hah...since the ibadah camp..i've been feeling strange...juz a few words and it has got me confused...last week it begins...pirol told me something really disturbing..since then,i dun think i want to talk to girls anymore...im to gullible...people take advantage of me...i dun mind helping but if he/she has another purpose...like juz to use me to satisfy their needs...now,that...wut piss me off...i thought bout it for days...im not mad anymore though...but it still there...someone talk to me...her words are more then confusing...either be stupid and act like nothing ever happen...or be smart and distant myself....distant myself wasnt the best idea...but being stupid is...well...stupid....but i guess...humans r like that...it's ok..i'll talk with her when it is time...

well...today was something...i went for 2tion as usual...i dreamt bout this girl...i was really excited to meet her...when i arrived...well...standard human reaction...i got a bit shy...well...im always shy with girls...but this is..well..more shy...haha....if u know me,than...u'll know how i reacted...she was shy to...from the outside that is...it's been a long time since i felt being more shy with another girl...it was also then that i had my real convo with her...thx though...it was...interesting....

I'm no superman,
I can't take your hand,
And fly you anywhere you want to go,yeah
I can't read your mind,
Like a billboard sign,
And tell you everything you want to hear,
But I'll be your hero

Serching high and low,
Trying every road,
But if I see your face,
How will I know,yeah
I'll put my trust in fate,
That you will come my way,
And if it's right,
It's undeniable,

I can be everything you need,
If you're the one for me,
like gravity,
I'll be unstoppable,
I, yeah
Believe in destiny,
I maybe an ordinary guy with heart and soul,
But if you're the one for me,
Then I'll be a hero,

So incredible,
Some kind of miracle,
When it's meant to be,
I'll become A hero, oh
So I wait,
Wait,
Wait,
Wait for you!

Ibadah(?) camp...

Hah...memang letih gle la camp tu...maybe camp yg paling letih...aduhai...mcm2 la explain..mlm tu...ckp pasal dosa2 yg dilakukan...abg tu minta renung...rasa bersalah la gak...bnyk budak nangis...x tahu la hati aku dh keras sampai x nangis...tapi...memang rasa la bersalah...tapi nk buat cmne kan? kte x lepas dari buat dosa...ble mkn...nmpk kwn2 mcmm sedih...risau la gak...so...tanya la sket...x nk kata apa but rasa mcm perlu....sorg kata sedih tengok pic2 acheh....sorg lg...nmpk mata merah...but aku kenal dia ni jenis cmne...so,x tanya la....cuma wish slmt mlm je..laki mcm rilek je...so,x tanya la...

pagi,bangun qialmullai(betol ke eja?)...memang mengantuk...nasib baik x tertido masa sujud mcm masa darjah enam...boleh la tertido..pelik2...gi mkn jap...mel tanya,ok x? dia tahu2 je ble aku sedih walaupon aku sendiri x sedar....ada lagi ceramah...ramai lg budak nangis...aku admit...ada air mata keluar sket...aduh...memang jadi mangsa abg tu...malu gle...mel kata aku nmpk mcm nak nangis..ye ke? haha...cuak je kot...mandi jap..sbb sorg ni bg penampar kat belakang aku...kira mcm wake up call la...haha...'thx' sham...aku wangi lg apa waktu tu...then...gi la mandi...nmpk sorg ni masuk surau sorg2....aku dh penat berdiam diri...aku pon msg,ok ke?...dia jwb ok..but nmpk sngt x...risau la gak...akhirnya balik...anyway...aku admit...sejak beberapa minggu ni pon aku jadi secretive sket...aku tahu...ko kata private...juz hear this...maybe i can help? actually...i want to help...wednesday lepas...slapas yg aku sedih gle selasa tu...amoi ni kata,never keep it in urself...i know im not in the position to talk coz aku pon masih memendam...aku ada masalah sendiri...but aku x kisah tinggalkan masalah2 aku tok tlg sape2...lg2...kwn2 aku...it's ur choice...i wont force u...but,im rite here waiting for you,ok?

"...If I ask, will you answer? ...It's your problem. A deep, deep problem. I have no right to know. I don't have a method of stepping into the depths of your heart without getting it dirty. So I'll wait. When you want to talk, when you think it's okay to talk... Talk to me. Until that time, I'll wait." - Rukia Kuchiki