Is It Over?

9-2? Is equal to 7 months right? So it has already been 7 months since she and I fought...sometimes the days are easy but some seems like forever...probably it is my fault that we fought...that's why I'm feeling so guilty...

She was fun, hyperactive, always smiling, always making people laugh even when they're down...she was one interesting friend...one I still regret losing over some stupid gossip...I should have confront her sooner...sooner that the gossip spreads out...even after the gossip got out and she believed it, I still wasn't able to manage it very well...was she emberrassed? It's a bit lonely here...and I kept thinking about Taylor's...all the mistakes I've made...I wish I could take it all back...I tried talking to her...but it seems like she's still angry towards me...what I should do? or rather, what can I do? I've tried everything and every one of my friends said to just ignore her...is this the right way?

New Place, A New Life

Last week was orientation week...it was fightening...trying to get along....trying to meet new people...trying to adapt...the 1st night felt like forever...I couldn't sleep...the next day was orientation...there were lectures the whole day...but I went back home later that evening...

My classes started yesterday...it was less frightening...but once I got back to my rented house,everything seems to be upside down...although I had a friend from Taylor's sharing a room with me, 'that' feeling didn't go away...pictures of the ones I cared about keep popping in my head...and everytime,a tear will come out...I just hope this feeling won't last for too long...I tried asking a few of my friends...and each of them gave a different answer...it was sad though...it felt like I was dissapointing them...but they kept saying that this feeling will go away and I was lucky enough that I could still see my family on the weekends...I know that and I keep telling myself that there are others who suffered more than me...but the feelings still didn't go away...this is only the 2nd day...I jus hope by next week,it will disappear...but for the people who gave me advice and are so patient with me, I just want to say that I really appreciate it...thank you :)