sick with u...

It's more than a habit
I'm more than an addict
I'm parked here outside of your door
Know you never lock it
Got your keys in my pocket
Lights all out
But I know for sure I am ...

Ten steps away from you
From you and him
Redemption, is that a sin?

You walk by the river
As you start to shiver
Two headlights are following you
As he pulls you closer
My engine's ticking over
It's my choice
To do what I do

I'm talking 'bout a split decision
Made in anger you know
I'm talking something that could change my life forever
Is it worth it? No
Is it worth it? No
Should I stay here and watch the show?
Or maybe ... it's time to go

I'd never run him over
I wouldn't wanna dent my car
I'd never rip your throat out
Cos that could leave a nasty scar
So I'm gonna go out
Get drunk with my friends
Try to get myself outta this funk
I'd never screw my life up
Because of how sick you are...

Friends...

yes!!!looks like wut i have been thinking all this time was not true...thanks sham 4 telling me the truth!!!and thanks to khairi and asyraf too...without khairi and asyraf,maybe i am still angry towards her rite now...thanks guys!i counldnt have the courage to confront her coz i am too scared that history might repeat itself...i thought that i have lost one,i dont wanna lose anyone anymore....but this time,maybe i wont....but wut about next year?i wonder?will she still be around?just have to wait and see...wutever the results is,i just have to accept it...but at least,sham apologize...unlike this particular someone...he/she just care about the cool guys or girls...maybe that's why...im not cool...ok,i admit it...im not cool,ive got nothing...im boring...but listen here,when u have great/true frens like mine,u wont need to be cool..u wont need to have like hundrends of money to impressed people...u wont need to act someone u aint...u dont have to cast away your feelings just to make people happy...in my opinion,that's kinda dumb...like me,when i have a problem,i just ask 4 advice from my frens...they had help me alot...each one of them has change a little bit of my life...example like asyraf,he make me realise that this particular someone was not worth it..yeah,and owh boy, he was rite...next example,sham,she had help me alot...she had done very good deeds to me...uncountable deeds...each and one my frens,akmal(yahya),amirul naim,sham,mai(zulkeple),asyraf,khairi,syafiq(cekal),faisal and many more had help me so much...i just wish i could return the favor...but im not sure if i can...anyway,guys,if ure reading this,thank u so much!i wont ever 4get wutvere u have done to me...to those i gave poems were the specials ones...hehehehe...anyway,wutever rite or wrongs u guys have done to me,u guys r always in my heart no matter how far away we r....thanks!

It's over!

Finally....the PMR is over....im kinda relieved but somehow kinda sad...it's just that PMR is over but my problem is just starting...i wonder...am i the only one who has this kind of problems? owh,and wafa,if u're reading this,i just want 2 say sorry...i know wut i did was wrong...but i was full with anger that time...but u should have confront him instead of just giving me clues...u know im not as smart as u....im dumber that u can imagine...that's why i cant tell if someone's truly want to be my fren or not....today,yeah...im kinda happy that i dont have to read books 247 anymore but something happen 2day....it's just breaks my heart...this is not the 1st time this thing happen to me...it has been twice...i dont know..am i really easy to be fooled with?am i ever enough to be a good fren to somebody?can i satisfied even 1 person with wut i have?when i do something nice,i never expect for something in return..NEVER...but when i found out that this particular someone didnt invite me to go somewhere with he/she instead she invited someone that she's not that very close,im feel really useless...like wut i did was never enough 4 he/she...2 months ago,i though my probs was over,looks like it's just starting....