Im the fool...

Before anyone reads this,just want to warn u that everything that i wrote in my blog has nothing to do with someone i really love..except the poems of course...but everything else,it's just about how i feel about my frens...im not that stupid to write about the one i love on blog...this will be most probably my last entry coz im tired...i need to quarantine my heart...i need to get away...i need to run away...far2 away...here it is.... my last entry....

im talking about u...u know who u r...if u dun know who u r,here's a tip...i once call u lina...

im sori if i've hurt u...

i didnt mean to...

im sori that i dissapoint u...

im sori that i bring to much sorrow...

im sori that i bring to much pressure...

i expect too much from u...

i've shouldnt have...

u r already perfect with who u r...

i just want to please u..

i just want ur full attention...

i tried with the wrong way...

history has already repeat itself...

and it's all my fault..

i couldnt bare the pain of being alone...

i thought i could change my destiny...

but now..

i realize...

i need to quarantine my heart..

if i dun,i'll just bring chaos to anyone who gets 2 near...

i know,i have many frens...

im really grateful...

but i still dun know wut to do to make my heart happy...

i know wut's missing...

but i just dun know how 2 obtain it...

we used to be so close..

but then i ask 4 something that u didnt have...

i was selfish...

im a fool...

for that mistake...

we aint that close anymore,r we?

"I've hurt u,u've hurt me"

im really sori...

i wasnt myself...

i didnt mean too...

i really wish we could be like last year...

but it's too late...

now,all that's left is a mere memory...

u arent the same as wafa...

at least u kept ur promise...

but maybe i do have to suffer alone...

at least i wont make u suffer...

at least i wont make my frens suffer...

i hold u so high up in my heart coz i though u could give me the answers that i needed...

but that's just selfish and stupid..

im just torturing u...

im just giving u too much pressure...

i didnt thought about ur condition...

i always only thought about myself...

u may think i dun need u...

but it really it's the opposite way...

but now,if i get 2 close...

i might hurt u again...

i wont let that happen...

it's hard enough knowing that the f2 girl likes somebody else...

it's stupid to hope something that wasnt even there from the beginning...

i may have my problems to deal with...

but the responsibilites as a fren doesnt come down...

u,mel,faisal,pirol,atiqah...and all of my frens...

u can always count on me..

i may not be funny like pirol!...

or 'bising' like nat...

but i'll try everything i can to help u guys...

im really sori 4 everything...

i know that im not the perfect fren...

4 that,im sori..

i cant socialize very well...

i hurts me to know that...

but ill try my best to be a fren...

now im not asking 4 ur attention...

now,im asking 4 ur forgiveness...

"it's easy to do nothing,but it's hard to forgive"

i cant forgive myself..

eventhough i may have forgiven u...

this post,has got nothing to do with 'love'

it's just that i felt our bond of frenship were once so strong...

now,it's not...

for that,i blame myself....

again,im sori 4 everything..

*just so u know,u'll always have a special place in my heart =D