U know im talking bout u...so,plz...i dun feel rite...i may have understand bout myself...but i cant understand u...u're my fren...i care bout u...we were once so close...i know that we cant be like before...u're afraid that if we try to be like before,our frenship will be damage even futher...u know that im hiding something from u...and i know that u're hiding something coz im hiding something...so,for one last time...i need to come clean with u...so that i'll have no more doubts bout u...i need to get something off my chest...it's a weight i've burden for too long...it's a stupid burden...but for sure,i need to know something...we'll have our exam in a week...so i'll wait 4 u until the last day of skool before our 2 weeks vacation...and when im being honest,i need u to do the same...dun be like that someone i'd history with last year and say,"i've got nothing to say"...she was always like that...and i hope u wont be like her...i lost so many...u know i do...u've heard my stories and my history...i dun want to lose anyone i love and care about anymore...i know that u're just being nice to me...u dun want to hurt me more than i can bare...but u still remember wut my ex did to me,dun u? dun lie to protect me...just say it,no matter how painful it is...it's the key to a real frenship...truth,integrity,honesty...as 4 atiqah...the one that heard bad things bout u then suddenly didnt talk to u...that one and probably with his/her gang isnt a true fren...a true fren...a real fren will stick with u no matter wut...they will support u no matter wut...they will find anything u need even if they need to search until the end's of the earth...a true fren dun let his/her fren carry their burden alone...they will share anything with u..sadness,happiness...and they dun just leave u to talk to somebody else...they will always carry u...will always be the light to pull u from the darkest darkness...there's nothing wrong with letting the people love u help u...why must we become such hypocrites? why must we act so tough? i dun like being a hypocrite..it hurts me inside to know that i have to put on a mask just too please everyone...even the one i consider close...so,does that mean...there's no such thing as a 'true fren'? i dun know...im beginning to lose my hope i wont give up yet...some frens like syaheela...i truly appreciate(even if u did once call me annoying but u did say sori)...and there r others...yes...i know this is a cruel world...but it's only a cruel world if u dun have a fren with the above characteristics(well,maybe not all but some is gud enough)...as 4 me...i dun have to be a hypocrite around true frens...but since these few months...i had to hide my heart...coz no one understood me...now,i finally understood myself but things still havent change in skool...well..some have change...some minor ones but the majors..nope...so,atiqah...my advice to u...stick to frens whom will always lend a hand when u need one...like me! haha! i wont leave anyone but why does everyone(not everyone,but some) kept on leaving me? x bersyukur? i dun know...it's just i want to feel like im needed...like im a part of someone...in other words i just want atleast somebody's attention...i've always gave my frens everything they needed...but i've never got anything back in return...not that im asking for it but it's just...u get the picture...im sorry if my words has hurt anyone's feeling...
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