When it's still there...

"Our greatest enemy is our ownself"....or so they say....everyone must have struggle with something in their lives...to determine wut's rite or wrong...how confusing...even in love...a fren of mine once asked me that do i really like the girl im crushing on or is just a simple attraction? coz she kept saying things that i dun know much bout the well being of the girl im crushing on...i said back,wut gud will it bring? she's never gonna be mine again...so,why should i care? each day i struggle to not care 4 her...each day i force myself to turn the other cheek...although i still want to care 4 her...but i cant...i tried 2 moved on 2 another girl,but it doesnt work...the feeling is just still there no matter wut i do...i dun hate her...just being loyal? haha...i wish i could be player..that way,i wont be hurt by anyone...my heart would be as tough as stone...but no..im to fragile...wut kind of guy am i? she's all i think about...haha..how more dumb could i be...just gotta keep quiet...that's all that i can do,rite toyol? When u really care bout someone,it's hard to walk away...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do..