Heart Speaks First

What a crazy week....1st,i went to skool my wearing the wrong shoes...then,i cant sleep....then i forgot to wear my deodorant...haha..haih...it's a gud thing the day when i didnt wear my deodorant,i wasnt sweating so much...oh,and i have to make a presentation yesterday...i dun know if i did great or bad..i heard most people comment that i was 'bajet' or 'over'..i dun know...probably i was...but mirza said that i did well..."u've come a long way"...haha...thx mirza...well,at that time,the only thing in my head was,if couldnt be brave enough to do this,how long will i'll be like this...i didnt do it to make people praised me...i do it coz it might helped me in the future...but im still shy...that's one thing i want to keep...i know when to be quiet and when to be loud...but i dun want to be angry to the people who stabbed me in the back...coz i know,most of them r my frens..."then,they dun really know u",mirza said...well,that's true...i've been through a lot...and i still am...so,kalau ada yg x puas hati,ckp je la depan2...nama pon kwn...buat pe nk simpan,tol? aku terima je...dan kalau aku buat korg tersinggung ke,aku leh ubah sket...but,u guys should know that my 'heart speak first'...usually,when people fights,they say things they didnt mean...they act the way they normally shouldnt...so,korg2,fhm2 la...kalau ada yg yg marah ke bengang,kte leh bincang...and korg pon patot tahu aku ni jenis yg mcm mana dari hati...i got this song and it really captures my situation with someone a few years back...but i guess,the lyrics can be bend in the condition im in...if only i wrote this lyrics sooner..i guess,now i've lost u...eh,sham,aku ada bg ko lagu ni kan? aku bg coz aku takot aku meletop ble2 masa...but,kalau ko nk buang,buang la...

Standing on the other side of the road,
With a tear in your eye.
Wishing that I didn't act the way I do,
Took it too far this time.
I was filled with emotion.
Instead of giving you space,
Threw it in your face,
You just wanted me closer,
But I pushed you away

It's hard for me to function when I know you're sad
Like a robot in rain.
And even though the hurts we feel was all my bad,
It still drives me insane, (It's making me crazy)
Do you know that I love you?
That I need you to be there,
Like a table needs chairs, my love.
After all that we've been through,
Please don't let it all slip away

I made you scream,
I made you cry,
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky.
We're still a team,
As much as it hurts.
Remember that they're only words,
My heart speaks first.
So baby whenever it hurts,
Remember that they're only words,
My heart speaks first..