Had the world figured out
And the girl on my shoulder told me,
"Everything's gon' be alright
And everything was gonna be alright "
Yea maybe we were in high school
But you never see the ending
When you're young and love pretending singin',
"Everything's gon' be alright
And everything was gonna be alright"
Buried her deepest side
Stars don't clear my eyes
Now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rock band
There's nothing really happy
'Cause the way you spent
Yea she's in Ohio
And I'm on tobacco
Coming to this city and then who knows
'Cause that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
And I took a trip out to L.A.
For the girl with a smile
That could take your breathe away I'm thinkin',
"Everything's gon' be alright
And everything was gonna be alright "
Maybe I thought I could sweep it
And sweep her off her feet
And go right back to Boston thinkin',
"Everything's gon' be alright
And everything was gonna be alright"
The streets keep holding on
But now she's so far gone
Take it back to you
So now that everything i dont know is so hard
It tore us apart,
Take me back to feeling that the world would
just be dealing me the right cards
And now your just so far
Twenty-three and invincible
Got the world figured out
And the bird on my shoulder told me,
"Everything's gon' be alright
and that means everything gon' be alright"
Hah..there's a song that adam gave me...she's got a boyfriend now by boys like girls...well,i cant say i dun like this particular girl but i cant say i like her either...so complicated...hate to love..love to hate...isnt it confusing? haha...but still,i care 4 her...just like wafa care 4 this particular boy...but anyway...i cant do anything much...im not like any other guy...4 me,it's just so hard...coz,in my past years no girl has ever accept me...but,i cant blame them...but i dun want to think much bout this...i try 2 moved on to another girl that i mentioned in my ealier post...but,it's hard...but,we'll just c in a few weeks....im not a player if anybody thinks that...im not the type of guy who's like,"oh,that girl is pretty,i want to know her.." or "that girl is worthless,she's nothing but trash"...im not some kind of guy who chases girls...and i dun expect girls to chase me...when the feeling is there,when the time is rite...confidence is an important thing...but,u have 2 learn to control it and never lose sight of urself...and be over-confident...that will result in ego-ness...im not the one to judge but i saw many people being overly-confident..and that just make things worse coz that will also result in hating of others...yeah2...we shouldnt care bout wut other people think as long as we r happy...but wut good is it if it only lead us to a 'darker' road? like,changing from a modest guy to metroseksual guy? or from a silent dude to a smoker? or from a low-confident guy to a over-confident guy? yes,changes r good...but we also need to choose or make a decision bout the choice that we make that will determine who we will become carefully...many of my frens have change...some change 4 the better..while some do not...but still,if they know wut they did is wrong,they know they can come to me...like arif did...but that was months ago...i dun know wut happened to him though...haha..coz,some people change bcoz they have to..in other words,they change coz they dun want to continue living in the life they r currently leading...either in pain or sadness...probably that's wut trigger some people to change..they know that they need to make a decision to get rid of their suffering so they chose to change...some did find the answer...while some do not...the ones who did not most probably end up in a 'darker' road such as myself...but im not entirely 'dark'...just how i feel...some people dun have the luxury of their frens correcting their mistakes...to take an example,like gaara from naruto....everyone hated him..even his family doesnt treat him rite and his own father wanted to kill him...so he decided that he is alone and his only purpose of living is to kill everyone who stands in his way...he lived by himself and with no one else to help me...until naruto came and change him 2 the better...naruto was like gaara at 1st...but naruto had a few people came...that doesnt care bout the 'demon' inside of him and accepted him for who he is...and that change naruto's anger and hatred towards his people to happiness and joy and the spirit 2 live for others and 2 love others...he lives for his frens...he lives by the love that his frens gave to him...to get to the point,when somebody decides to change it better to think twice coz the 'change' might upset the people that care about that person...as 4 me,i have change and i still dun know if it's 4 the better or worse...by my frens's eyes...it is 4 the better...but 4 me,why do i still feel so much pain? i wonder...am i being a hypocrite to myself? am i lying to myself? wut i know,i dun want my frens to get fed up with me any longer...that will just upset me more...my closest frens should have realize by now that i dun share any of my problems anymore...but i dun blame them...even i am sicked of myself with this never ending problems...but,like nat always said,"sbr2...ini lah hidup"...and i did...so far...4 probably bout 2 months...im still stable...probably bcoz of her...but hey,i hope im going to the rite road...and somehow,i gain a little bit of strength from jega,shafeeq,sham,nat,mel and syairah...probably there r others...haha...but,jega and sham...thx 4 keeping me happy...mamak,nat,syairah and mel,thx 4 the support...u guys kept me from changing to a 'darker' person...and evethough i have my own problems,i can help others coz,that's wut frens do rite? support each other till the end...so that we can accomplish something bigger 2gether...oh,bout 2day...i went to jega's open house and it was,well unexpected...but it was a nice house...when i arrived,nat,sham and farah was already there...oh,and how shy i can be? haha...sori nat sbb buat ko tunggu! but aku ckp gak apa yg ko nk tahu kan? btw,ko nmpk 'cantik' sgt! hahahahaha! masa ko duduk kat luar tu,aku ikot ko kan? mcm dating la lak! haha...but kte ckp je...bukan dating pon..but,kwn2 kte yg lain pkir cmtu! siap ambik gmbr lak tu! adeh! JEGA! SHAM! AMU! ADIK! but it was fun...haha!
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