a new leaf...

ehm...i think i got some answers....tq again chibi & efi! i think im asking too much....like u said efi,i should be thankful....ahhh....how stupid i can be huh? i think it's time for me too truly trust my frens...im blurr when making decissions....no more emo huh,kecik? time for me to make my own decissions...not making it by depending on others....i do have frens....frens who truly cares about me...thx guys! im just too depress to see it....now,i can see it...kecik,u said that we each may need our alone time,but isnt it when we're alone it will only get worse? we need frens that can guide us through the dakrness and into the light....just like i need u guys....i didnt mean that im happy when my frens tortures me....i mean im happy when i do something that will make my frens happy..like,telling jokes...comfort them....make them feel like they r never alone as long as they have frens...that's wut i meant when i said im happy when my frens r happy...i dun like when they torture me...is that wut u call frens? people who abandon u when u need him/her the most? people who doesnt even care about u? i know im not funny like acap,akmal,syamil,khairi or like any other boys who's at my school...i know im boring....but,ill try my best to make the ones i care about,happy through out their lives....time to think positive...time to leave the scars behind...let it heal....my real story starts now...a new chapter...a new beginning....venture through the darkness with the help of my frens...returning to the light...time to turn over a new leaf!