1st semester of FIS..

Finally....6 months have felt like forever! dah mula cuti...but 3 minggu je....aiyo...things have really been tough...i have to pick myself up alone so many times...felt like form 1 all over again...crying everynight...all the screaming...getting angry very easily...

things really have been crazy...i felt people abandoned me...they said,they'll be there if i ever needed them...guess those are just words...so called friends? since i was little,i was already fighting for myself...since i am the only boy...and i dont want my sisters to fight for me...they already got their hands full...kena hina dengan cikgu...senior...junior...'kawan'...musuh...all of that,i handled it myself...but along the way,and some that are still with me,stand by my side...and they know i had a rough life and i dont want to bother them...not many left...but im really thankful that they're still here,talking to me...and wanted to help...i never asked for help...if i think i can handle it alone...

even if i cant,i'll always try to find a way...i just cant believe people can say i never fight for myself...i know people cant accept me...because im really damaged...i have to many problems that i cant solve for myself...and because of that,im always confuse...i've always wanted people to accept me...but if they cant,i know why...

and i also want my friends to just support me...if they cant give me any advice...i dont blame them...this is my problems...i've always kept things to myself...now,i just dont know what to believe anymore...

so,cant i really fend for myself? that's what i want to know...is it wrong for me to seek for help? but this 1st semester,i met new people...who i just can talk...who barely knows about my past...but still willing to help...even if i dont ask for it...some dont even let me be alone...some likes to pick fights...some tried to supprt me...but i really appreciate what they've done so far...it has been a fun semester...and i hope we can have another one like this next semester...i dont think i would have stop being alone if it werent for them...so,thank you...