Deserve?

I read an article a few days ago about people being unhappy...and that article really made me think that i myself decided not to be happy...

It is also stated that when people decided that they don't want to be happy because they don't want to get their hopes up and get disappointed again...but it is not true?

Sometimes i just really wish that i could just stay in my room and never come out...sometimes i feel like i don't even want to see anyone...

What if i'm happy but others are not? eh Annisa? I rather be unhappy than to see her unhappy...

I don't even deserve to have people like this around me...they are to kind...after what i've done,i don't deserve anything...