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Aiyo...baru dua hari...rasa dah sakit kepala...asyik rasa takut nak mula benda baru..asyik rasa rindu...semua bercampur...at least 1 masalah dah kurang sikit...tetapi itu,aku still boleh handle...problem baru,lagi teruk...aku je ke yg lemah? aku pun x tahu...semalam 1st day orientation...agak takut...xde benda yg xleh handle...sampai la balik ke bilik...bersendirian...mula teringatkan parents...sedih la...apa lagi...rasa bersalah pun ada...tempat ni dah la mahal...kalau aku tahu akan rasa macam ni,baik aku terima uniten je dulu...at least situ murah sikit...sini,kalau la aku boleh convince parents untuk duduk rumah...kalau parents aku masih muda,maybe aku xkan fikir macam ni...memandangkan mereka berdua dah tua,memang rasa bersalah nak tinggalkan...seorang kakak dah kahwin...seorang dah kerja...dan seorang lagi nak pergi india...xde la orag nak teman mereka...betul juga apa yang mirza kata,"like they need u and u need them"...memang aku bengang kalau orang cakap macam tu..sebab xde orang faham,betapa sedihnya kadang2 menjadi anak seorang lelaki...bila cuti lepas spm,aku yang banyak teman mereka ke mana2 tempat...bukan setakat lepas spm je...sebelum tu lagi...bukannya aku nak kata aku x suka jadi anak seorang lelaki,aku suka sangat...setiap kali aku buat sesuatu yang membanggakan,mereka gembira je...sekarang ni mereka terpaksa keluarkan duit hanya sebab aku x dpt score dalam spm...aku memang x suka biarkan mereka buat apa2 tanpa aku menolong...sekarang ni kat rumah,aku x dpt tolong mereka lagi...setiap kali aku fikirkan pengorbanan yang mereka telah buat untuk aku,memang air mata akan keluar...dan aku x dpt apa yang mereka nak untuk spm...ini suatu lagu yang selalu ingatkan aku tentang mereka...

Sun rise and I lift up my head then I smile at your picture sitting next to my bed
Sun set and you’re feeling okay cause you smile at the letter that I sent you today
Cant wait till I see you again and we both say remember when
The band played on the fourth of July and you held me on your shoulders way up high

Your still there for me
Wherever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us I’ll send a message across the sea
That you can’t sleep tonight knowing it’s all right
I believe that you’re listening to my song
You’re with me
You’ve been here all along
You’ve been here all along

Back then you walked me to school told me to be careful and to follow the rules
Fast forward you taught me to drive you gave me the keys and we went for a ride
And I cant wait till I see you again and we both say remember when
I’m holding on to moments like that and I know that their coming back

All along the way I keep you in my heart and in my prayers
You’ll always be the one who cares the most
Counting all the days
I see you running up to say, “ I missed you”
I missed you

Your still there for me
Wherever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us I’ll send a message across the sea
That you can’t sleep tonight knowing It’s alright
I believed that you’re listening to my song
You’re with me
Cause you’re with me
You’ve been here all along
You’ve been here all along