We start being friends when we were in form 2...i dont really remember how but somehow we became friends...macam mana ye? kau ada nak pinjam kerja aku ke? lupa dah...but kita jadi rapat memang cepat...kau mula duduk sebelah aku kadang2...kita asyik kacau je cikgu diam2...haha...ingat lagi apa aku cuba buat time 2? hahaha...hantar surat semua...akhirnya,aku yg kena...aku masih tak boleh lupa final exam maths kita,kita fail...semua pasrah...melissa tak fail kan? tapi dia kecewa juga sebab dapat rendah...hahaha...
Form 3,suprise-suprise! kita dapat masuk kelas yang sama...kau nak duduk sebelah aku kan? tetapi time tu aku pentingkan izudin...tetapi kau still duduk dekat..kau duduk belakang aku ek? ke kau dapat duduk sebelah aku? lupa dah...tetapi aku ingat lagi,aku terlebih emosi at one time...kau nampak...so,kau bawa aku pergi tandas...kau tanya aku kenapa aku emo...but aku asyik tak nak cakap...but you know who's the cause of it...and you just told me to just do not think about her...and it helped...for a while...hahaha....ingat lagi tak,ada sekali,semasa period sains...kau cakap sesuatu...and aku melenting kat kau...mata kau terbeliak je...and kau jadi senyap...minta maaf sangat2 ye time tu...but you know the reason right? why i suddenly burst it out on you? because i remember i apologised to you on the same day...you just cant get it why i just cant let her go at that time...and that was just the 1st part of it..we had our PMR that year..and we were a match huh? hahaha....you got straight and i got straight...yipee!
Form 4,kita masuk kelas yang sama sekali lagi sebab our results...things just got worse...for me...and i still didnt let you in and tell you my problems...why? sometimes i just think that it's not worth it...cause,it just keeps on coming back...i cried again on the balcony one day...and you came up to me and asked what's wrong...but i just blew you off and turn the other way...how stupid right? since then,you gave up with asking me what's wrong...and you just keep on making me laugh and laugh every chance you got...remember ada sekali kau nak ambil kerusi kat kelas cekap and masa tu time agama....uztaz tanya aku soalan and aku pegang dagu aku...and kau dari luar,gelakkan aku sebab uztaz cakap,"kamu xde janggut buat pe pegang dagu..?" hahahah....siot an kau jega! and macam biasa,our final exam pun lebih kurang...kau mcm tiru aku indirectly je....hahahaha...lek lek...ingat time kat bilik media...tidur je kerja kau an...same goes for shafeeq! but u keep asking me to sit beside sham...i guess at this time,u figured it out...hahaha...time our final exam,aku selalu lepak dengan budak2 PPS kat bilik pn zaleha...and i guess i left you alone...that wasnt right...i was only thinking about myself...i should have spend a little more time with you...
Form 5,suprise2! sama kelas lagi! kau stalking aku ye jega! hahahaha.....things doesnt change much only that i talk to you more compared to our previous years...kau dah faham sikit2 why im so troubled at some times...kita buat macam2 gila time tahun ni...selalu buat bising kat belakang kelas...selalu kena marah...and kau selalu tak nak the rat duduk sebelah aku...hahaha....then,kita pergi lawatan ke muzium2 tu...i really regret about that day...cause i didnt spend much time with you and shafeeq...i was busy with my stupid problems...i dont even know why i did that...then,kita pindah ke bilik media...bilik media jadi kelas kita for how many months dah? 3-4? or more than that? biar la...but kerja kita tak pernah dikacau...kita sambung gak tidur kat belakang! siap sampai baring2! memang sedap perut kau jega! hahaha...lek lek...everytime aku jadi muram,aku nampak muka kau pun jadi lain...aku tahu...i should just told you...but it was hard...my heart was shattered...and it was just hard to build my confidence back up to tell anyone...plus,many people dah fed up and marah kat aku sebab asyik ada masalah yang sama...aku tak nak kau marah dekat aku...tu aku tak nak cakap...things has just been rough for me...even up till now...ingat hari sukan? aku lupa bawa kamera so aku pinjam kau punya...sori sebab aku ambil gambar2 kau x betul..kau sabar je dgn aku...then,kita gi lawatan ke KLCC...one of the days yang aku still regret...sebab tak spend time dengan kau..sekali lagi aku asyik dengan masalah2 bodoh aku...but bila dah nak habis lawatan tu baru aku jumpa kau dan jalan2 dengan kau...kau,puga,thayalan...memang gila2 semua...then,ingat lagi teacher's day? memang kita plan habis2...it was fun...cause i was really occupied that i didnt even think about my probs until the end of the show...then,by the time trials nak start...aku jarakkan diri sebab nak study...ingat? kita kena marah dengan cikgu ni sebab duduk kat corridor...geram je aku...lpeas habis trials,suprise2! ada berita gembira...and kau marah aku sebab x bagitahu kau...but u were happy for me right? hehe...sampai la SPM...kita belajar je...looks like our results were not like our trials...but,we cant change it right...
S,to sum it up...i was really stupid...for the way i acted to you...aiya...i should have think it through...but i didnt and i always put my stupid emotions 1st...dumb act huh..but you were very patient with me and for that,i am truly grateful...so,kau dengar gak prob2 aku kadang2 so let me do the same...anyway,good luck my friend...brother...and yes,kau memang salah seorg kwn baik aku :P keep in touch...thank you for everything...good luck!
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