Damn...im sorry sham...

Damn it...wut have i done? wut the heck was i thinking...i dun want to lose u...i shouldnt have said wut i said...plz! sham! give me one more chance! i cant lose u....u were like arif and kevin...they were the puzzle of my heart...they complete me...as u were...im just sad that now is different...i know u want me to stand by my own two feet...im trying...but it really helps if u just give me a little support...just a little...im not really confident in myself..u held my hand before...i miss those times...i know i cross the line when i 'kong2' u...i didnt realize wut i was doing...i didnt know it hurt u...i lose M...but im still trying to win her heart...but i dun want to lose a fren...u r precious to me...i mean,as a fren la...not more than that...and it cant be less...This monday...we have the oral test rite...if u just say that u're with me,im sure i can do it...plz sham...u mean more to me than u know...that doesnt mean that i like u or anything...u know who i like rite? u know that im just weird...a bit different...it's true...im a true 'bongsu"...im ashamed...i didnt mean that i want u to literally hold my hands...i just need ur support...that's all...like last year...u ask me a few day ago that im mad at...i didnt answer...yes,i was mad at u coz i thought u lied to me...but when i hear from nat that wafa made u go,i felt ashamed...i shouldnt have given u the silent treatment...im deeply sori...if we can forget the whole fights ever happen,i promise to do anything for u...i promise...we had a lot of fights and it has change me...on the outside...u were the only one who brings peace to my turmoil after those 3 years...i dun know why...but last year,it felt like u understand me...and i still believe that...remember,last year when u cried coz ur voice wasnt loud enough and uztazah made acap read for u? when i heard that,i promise to not make u cry again rite? it is really foolish to say this...but,u did really gave me confidence...can we forget the whole thing ever happen? i can try if u want...and u want me to treat u like a normal fren rite? i can if u want...remember those songs that i gave u for ur present? listen to them...it speaks my mind bout u...i cant lose u...i wont lose another fren...u r precious to me...like i said,not more than a fren but not less...so,if u read this post,plz let me know...i dun want to fight no more...i want us to be like before...