Why?

I dont get it....wut does friendship means for the people at smkbb?the meaning of friendship for them is different from mine....for me...friends r the one that will guide u through life...best friends r there when u need them and BFFs r the one that will stay with us forever...last year,i met a girl....she was really great...she has taught me alot but in the begining of this year,she's change....i love her like a sister....we were close but she dont want to be so close coz she's afraid that her bf might break up with her..too late...now she doesnt entertain me like last year...i miss the old times...she even said that we're r bffs....only me & her...but now i know the reasons why she doenst entertain me anymore...coz she only entertain boys that have looks,smart,funny and other things...i dont have all of that...i feel sad....i cant do anything...last tuesday,first of April,my other friend had a bday and she was invited.....but my so-called bff didnt invite me...
how could she?i mean,she said that i was her bff rite?why didnt she invite me?she only invite the other guys who have looks...not me...ive tried to forget her since then...but yesterday she suddenly entertain me..i thought she was feeling guilty coz she called me "a dust on the road" if got compared to her ex-bfon wednesday...then,about at 1 pm,she suddenlt cried..i dont want to comfort her coz she hurt my feelings so many times!!!But my heart tells me to go and comfort her...i dont know why i did it...until now..i still hopes she and her gang will understand how i feel...left out by them each and every day....i have high hopes for her someday...that's why i cant just forget about her.....after all of the memories we shared together..i just wish they will understand me.....