Alone?

Guess im back where i started a few months ago...almost everyone around me is really testing my patience...i trust people too fast...now look where it lead me? alone again...one by one they all just left...when they met me,they all said the same thing,"u can share your problems with me" or something similar to that...

but they all just left me like a fool...even the new people i met did the same thing...once they've found new friends...well,u know what im going to say...im too naive...what frustrates me is that cant they just keep their word? suddenly a new person came up to me and said the same thing...can i trust her? what i know,my heart is dying and dying and my trust towards people is becoming less and less...or maybe i just dont know how to handle my problems...everytime i have one,i just run away from it...now people said that im too sensitive...that really hurts...cause it came from a trustworthy friend...

probably i let them in too fast...

I Should Go..

Here we are

Isn't it familiar

Haven't had someone to talk to

In such a long time

And it's strange

All we have in common

And your company was just the thing I needed tonight

Somehow I feel I should apologize

Cuz I'm just a little shaken

By what's going on inside

I should go

Before my will gets any weaker

And my eyes begin to linger

Longer than they should

I should go

Before I lose my sense of reason

And this hour holds more meaning

Than it ever could

I should go

I don't mean to leave you with a trivial excuse

And when you call tomorrow, I'll know what to do

Happy or Unhappy...

I really wish that i could turn back the time sometimes...i've forgotten about my ex...but now i cant be near her either...im afraid to meet her...im afraid i'll hurt my friends...when i think about it,im happier now...but what's the cost? sometimes i think like everytime im present in some situation,the situation will only end up to be worse than it's supposed to...

maybe i cant really be happy...maybe it's not just my way...i wish i could turn back the time where i didnt know all the girls yet...my feelings are just getting in the way now...at that time,i dont have a single feeling...just cold...now i think im too close for comfort with some of them...or maybe im just still dissapointed with my results? maybe i shouldnt get too close...

My Heart Will Go On..

My Heart Will Go On...one song that has captured many hearts around the world...even mine when i was just 3/4 years old...even when i was little,this song ease my mind a bit...and it helped me to sleep...the song was created for the movie Titanic that came out in 1993...

i havent really saw the movie...i only saw bit by bit...and a week ago...there was a trailer that this movie is making a comeback...and there was one part,where the song goes,"you're here,there's nothing i fear" and that part was playing a clip where leonardo dicaprio said to kate winslet,"don't you ever let go" then kate said,"i would never let go"...it really captured my heart at that moment...

i really wish that someday,someone would say the same thing to me...there were people who said it before,but they have gone away...the song is really sad in a way...but it is one of my favourites...

You Suck At Love

We started off incredible

Connection undeniable

I swear I thought you were the one forever

But your love was like a loaded gun

You shot me down like everyone

'Cause everyone's replaceable

When you're just so incapable

Of getting past skin deep

You played me like an amateur

Then stabbed me like a murderer

I'm left for dead, another one of your victims

It's not like you're unpredictable

But your act is so believable

I know it's nothing personal, it's just business as usual

You're good at what you do

Now I kinda feel bad for you

You're never gonna know

what it's like to have someone to turn to

Another day, another bed

It's just a game inside your head

Guess what, another game over

I got burned, but you're the real loser

I don't know why I've wasted my time with you

You're bad news, a history repeater

You can't trust a serial cheater

You're good at hooking up but you suck at love

Jet Lag

Not sure why...but i really like this song...

What time is it where you are?

I miss you more than anything

Back at home you feel so far

Waitin' for the phone to ring

It's gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down

I don't even wanna be in this town

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin' me crazy

You say good morning

When it's midnight

Going out of my head

Alone in this bed

I wake up to your sunset

And it's driving me mad

I miss you so bad

And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged

Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged

Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?

Five more days and I'll be home

I keep your picture in my car

I hate the thought of you alone

I've been keepin' busy all the time

Just to try to keep you off my mind

Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

I miss you so bad

I wanna share your horizon

I miss you so bad

And see the same sunrising

I miss you so bad

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me...

Weird... =.=

Left Me Alone..

I seriously dont get some people...in high school,for years i've been suffering inside and since i was little,i have trouble in telling people how i felt...

I just kept to myself...then,a few people came as saw how troubled i was...back then,they keep asking me,"r u ok?"...i kept looking the other way...but i learned to share my problems little by litlle...but then,once,a few people got fed up with me and just left...but they came back but i have trouble sharing with them my problems again...

But as soft as i can be,i forgave them and let them back in my heart cause they keep telling me that they're 'there for me'...but now,they just left me again...so,who's fault is it now? is it still my fault cause i cant always look at the positive side? or them cause giving me hope? there's one thing that is clear in my mind and that is,if they dont want to help,why bother asking and helping years ago? just let me be alone then as they let me alone now...i seriously cant get them...cant they keep their words? i dont even know what to believe...if u dont want to help,then just let them be in the first place....dont give any sentimental words...