Rain...

June’s lies and the truth in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
Nestling close to one another, warmth; I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” you said, forcing it upon me and then you said goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

Endlessly ringing; the merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me
If I close my eyes they will only grow surrounding me at a distance; your laugh

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? Why does it chooses me who has nowhere to escape to?

Time intrudes on the new morning I finally found
The direction I face is not the future, I kept chasing after the past

You, who gave me a new start by your consolations and the hateful and cowardly me
It’s about time… Fumbling, my troubles spill down my tired cheeks

Eyes that don’t want to know the past and fingers that can wash it all away
Scars heal at a gentle pace; at an unreachable distance that seems to be within reach

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? I wonder if it’s okay to let myself drown in it

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end
While we quietly nestle together with warmth under the umbrella I hold

Invisible...

I can feel you all around
In the silence I hear the sound
Of your footsteps on the ground
And my heart slows down

Something's changing deep inside
All my hopes are comin' alive
As we're fading into the night
I can see your eyes

You're all that i can see in the darkness

Believe we make this

All that we want it to be

We can stay here forever

Cause when we're together

Stuck in this fantasy

I don't want to leave..

So now I'm..

I'm waiting for the moonlight
So I can find you
In this perfect dream
Don't think that you can
Hide there in the shadows
Girl your not invisible
Your all that I can see..

*This is juz a start-up...the official one that i should write for you,may take a while...haha

Trials!

Fuh! setakat ni memang susah gle ar! BM pon dh susah...x lg BI...aduhai...xleh ckp ar pasal sub lain...memang habis pening kepala!

x habis lg kira ni...physics lusa...habis la...physics antara yg aku lemah...tapi kena la cuba dulu sblum give up,tol? haha...tapi...walaupon masa exam,minda aku x pernah tenang....

benda2 ni x pernah kluar dari minda aku....ada gak benda2 baru yg aku sedar...ada yg kwn yg aku percaya...jadi makin x percaya...ada gak beberapa yg tbe2 jadi yg aku percaya...tapi,mcm biasa...mayb aku yg silap...aku x tahu cmne nk kekalkan persahabatan...hampir smua,aku cuma hancurkan je...aku x pandai jaga kot...

sori nadia...aku x leh teruskan ngan 'dia'....aku hargai apa yg ko dh buat tok aku slama ni...tapi...aku x rasa aku leh teruskan...

esok gi rumah pirol lak...harap aku leh teruskan...

doakan aku berjaya 4 trials ye...

Wouldn't Change A Thing..

It's like, she doesn't hear a word I say

Her mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like all she wants is to chill out

I'm serious

She makes me wanna pull all my hair out

I'm always in a rush and interrupted

Like she doesn't even care

I'm always trying to save the day

Just wanna let my music play

She's all or nothing

But my feeling's never change

Why can't she try to read my mind?

I try to read her mind

It's not good to psychoanalyze

She tries to pick a fight to get attention

That's what all of my friends say

You, me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

When I'm yes, she's no

When I hold on, she just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

but you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

Hah..she keeps being in my mind...she makes me worry...why can't she tell if she's mad? I've juz gotta be patient...

The holidays...so far..boring...but i was looking for it...i juz want some peace and quiet...but it's only gonna last for 7-8 more days? Shoot...Raya is coming...hope i can make it through...hah..so i went to the book fest at kllc today...wow..cant believe we had to buy a ticket juz to get in...it was a late invitation so i went with my 'sis'...well...she didnt have any one to go wtih her...so,i went with her instead...that place reminds me of something...sad though...anyway...funny thing was,she change my family's mood...tq diyanah...i was looking something to lighten up my family's mood...didnt think it was her...so,i walk with her all around the exhibition...finally,i found the latest darren shan book..at 1st,i didnt think i want to buy it...but,she said,it's best to buy even if it reduces only bout RM10...well,the book was expensive..but im the type who likes to buy the 1st and last collection...i want to keep it as a memory..after buying the book...i went home but she stayed to wait for her bro...

That's the story so far...boring rite? Im not into this love this so much anymore..after i've been crushed so many times...but im still looking...like this girl im constantly thinking bout...well,like in David Archuleta's new song, "There's something bout love that breaks your heart...it sets you free..There's something bout love that tears you up...you still believe..but don't give up..There's something bout love.."

Sambutan Merdeka

Wah...memang meriah betol hari ni...mcm2 persembahan...1st...a. samad said(yg akmal pernah panggil future aku) dtg tok beri pengalama dia...sorg yg dh berumur 70 tahun...mesti la tahu bnyk...memang best ar sketsa pn zaleha...apa dh ayat haziq..."buka puasa dgn madu,belum cuba belum tahu"? haha..mcm2 la diorg tu...pastu masuk philharmonic punya group...fuh...dia memang menawan...tergamam aku kat situ...lepas smua tu,masuk kelas...

smua pakai menawan2...thx kepada yg memberi pujian kepada aku...korg pon nmpk menawan...ambik2 gmbr sampai la habis skolah...well,kecuali time physics yg memang tension...but cikgu tu berniat baik...dia minta hafal 10 ayat dlm masa 10 min...bunyi gle kan? tapi kte dpt buat gak...separuh..haha...but,cikgu terima je...kemudian main scrabble ngan hannah..agak kekok la coz aku memang x bnyk ckp ngan dia...tapi dia insist..join jela...satu benda je aku menyesal...x bergmbr ngan dia..aduhai...aku x nk nmpk desperate...tu aku buat bodo je...tapi aku dh wish gud luck kat dia smlm...

You don't run with the crowd

You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
That's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that can compare

You got something so real
You touched me so deep
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You've won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

What makes you different,makes you beautiful
What's there inside you,shines through to me
In your eyes I see,you're all I need,
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

You don't know how you touched my life
In so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me

Toumei Datta Sekai...

What did I really lose on that day?

I forgot long ago

We lost sight of each other in the twilight

What's more; we were unable to return

Somewhere our brittle, broken hearts

Try to hide behind strong words

Try to hide

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

Even in a world where you no longer exist, I will run

Passing through each day's pain

Passing through

The scent of grass of the broken glass in the “wounded” summer

Hey, where are you now?

In the time you have hated muddy water which was clean before

I have grown up

The reflection from the surface of the water was wobbling

Even now, the light still shines

The light still shines

Farewell, we waved hands that day

What had changed you

And yet, I’m still living

Overcoming my urge to cry in the night

What did I really lose on that day?

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

I’ll make the world run

Someday when I see through the future

Seeing through

Not good enough?

Hah...."another day,another dollar"...that's wut spongebob used to say..haha...but 4 me...another day,another adventure...keep on searching and searching...everyday wut i c is the same...im tired of it...the feeling of helplessness...it as though im not even alive....

there's a saying i found a year ago..."to live without a purpose is the same as being dead.."...i dun know...it's juz getting worse and worse...it's hard enough dealing with the fact that one of the person u trusted the most,lied to u...and even change...it's ok if it is 4 the better...but this...i dun know...can i judge? coz even i've change...people change...as nat says...that's true...im kinda dissapointed..i never expect to have a fren like this...fine...if u're in love...i can deal with it...if u want to put ur love one more than ur frens...that's fine 2...but plz...dun overdo it...it's been years...all those years...i didnt trust u...and when i try too...u broke that trust...i still have the others though...but still...u were one of the person i can talk childish-like...well...pirol is childish but he still more mature than me...but the others..i still feel like im not good enough 4 them...i keep saying to those people..."get the hell out of my sight..." or "i rather be alone than to become like u guys.."...but really...deep inside...im juz looking 4 a fren...i know i've got lots of them...i dun know...am i juz not grateful? everyday...i try to do the best that i could to talk to them...i would be lying if i said it is easy as pie...

even today...we had tadarus al quran...as usual...im shaking to my bones...i was searching 4 shafeeq..but he came late..i cant make uztaz wait..he was getting impatient...i saw a few of them...juz reading like it was nothing...and their happy too...probably im in the wrong side...even though some of them r not that hard working...they still can read the quran...probably that's wut makes their hearts so cool and steady...unlike mine...im hard working in my studies but not in the quran...i dun have the right to judge...probably im juz jelez that they'r so happy...probably...i rather be alone than to think that im juz an annoyance to them...