sorry...

Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights, but lullabies
Helps make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
I'm building up the strength just to say,

I'm Sorry
For breakin' all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
It's on me
This time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know you're gonna walk away
And leave me with the price to pay ,

I can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go
Then please go,
Just leave me alone
Cause I don't wanna see
You and me goin' our separate ways I
'm begging you to stay
If it isn't to late ...

sori..

owh..btw to all my girl friends(kwn perempuan),im sori...but i need a little more time...sori if my coldness got to u guys...plz understand...and if u guys have any way to help me,plz send me a sms or a message or a comment....

Am i just a tool? or a fool?

i officially dont get her...she wrote me letter saying that she wanna be friends with me again....of course,after so long i havent talked to her....she hurted me very bad...and now,she got a new 'bff',i guess it proves im not that important as she says i am to her...she said that she wanna be friends with me again but she has done nothing but hurt me more...now,my heart is really torn apart...bcoz of her,i cant really trust girls anymore(sori atiqah,sue yin)....it's just so hard to regain my confidence and my trust against my guts again...that's why im such a coward,shy and quiet...that's why i've been so cold these few days..im just so scared to trust anyone...for now,the one i can really trust is akmal,sham and melissa...she's a hypocrite...everytime when she says she's gonna do something,she never did...am i just a tool for her to play with? each time she got bored with her other tools,she goes to me? maybe,i am a fool...sham said to just forget about her...but it just so hard seeing her everyday...last friday was fun...i stayed back with sham and mel...and we were at the surau...and as usual,we studied of course..PMR is just a month a way...but 4 the 1st time in 2 years,at that time,i was totally myself....i dont know why but at that time,they bring out myself that i locked myself away for too long...but that was only that time...that's my prob i guess..i cant bring out the REAL me...i hope someday,i can...

Kawan baik?

aduh...izudin2...nape la ko bersikap sedemikian kepada aku skrng? kenapa ko fikir yg aku fikir ko rampas wafa daripada aku? aku x pernah berfikir sedemikian terhadap ko...aku cuma minta ko jaga wafa...buat dia bahagia...aku x mampu...aku hanya menambahkan lagi kesengsaraannya...ko pernah jadi kwn baik aku...tapi skrng aku mula sangsi terhadap ko...maafkan aku..mungkin aku je bukan kwn yg baik..sebab tu wafa pon jauhkan diri daripada aku...kalau sape2 yg baca ni...fhm la kedudukan aku...kalau korg masih nak kutuk aku,kutuk la...aku jenis yg 'open'...kalau ada yg x puas hati ckp je la....aku akan cuba untuk buat korg gembira seberapa yg aku mampu..atiqah...sue yin...

4 u...

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try,
somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

I've got to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisworld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own way...

ME:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Her:
What about trust?

Me:
you know I never wanted to hurt you

Her:
and what about me?

Me:
What am I supposed to do? I gotta leave but I'll miss you

When the one you want doesn't want you...

When you come back I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no it's not your fault

I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something that I've just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in,
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was next to you
'Cause someone else was on your mind
In your head...

When I came to see her she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call.....

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you............

Where do i go?

Where do I go?
Every direction seems to be against the flow
And who will I be?
What does it mean to just be me?

Did I let you down?
My good intentions never seem to come around
And I have to believe
That there's an answer I can see

So tired of havin' to choose
Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do?

I can't tell what's up or down
My head's spinnin' all the time
Every time that I turn around,
There's another useless sign
I wanna know but I don't know
Which way I'm gonna go
Where will I go?
Which way will I go?

Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?