Count On You...

I remember how we felt sittin' by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Hah! Finally! 9 subs have done! only 1 more left! oh! ada satu post yg asyik2 tertangguh...nak masuk dua bulan dh kan? hohoho...actually...aku x tahu nk tulis apa...coz aku dh slalu tulis pasal ko...u're the only one who didnt notice...well...let's start from the beginning...f3 rite? some say it started when we were f3...i dun actually remember...org tua kan...hahaha

start f4..mcm2 jadi...we fought and fought non-stop...we were so close of becoming enemies arent we? everything i did,u will get mad...and everything u did,i will get mad...although my intentions was good,but i admit it...i express it in the wrong way...

after a lot of spying...a lot of thinking...i finally give in and decided that wut i was doing was wrong and i should apologize..u finally forgive me in the end of last year...

i tried to move on...i tried and tried...but i still couldnt get u out of sight(jahatnya bunyi)...

at the start of this year,2010...i secretly hope to be in a seperate class...sori...but my feelings were mix at that time...but PSS came and c us,the f5,and said that we shall be in the same class as last year...a part of me wanted to jump! but a part of me told me not to...and not to expect anything...i juz go on as usual...i dun know how...but bcoz of u...i started to tie back my frenship with my old 'crush'...i started to c other girls in new ways...and after several months of advice given by a few people...i started to be happy...then,suddenly....'he' came and started to disrupt my plan and crush ur heart...that was on the day that u were having a cold and u hold my hand with ur blazer...we were skipping physics when u told me that 'he' doesnt seem to want to contact u...i was like,"wut is his problem?"...but i didnt say anything...i thought that it might hurt u or my cover will be blown...seriously,it takes a lot of planning to do my acting tau! thx to syaheela and jega...and almost everyone who knew...

then...dtgnya...our trip to KLCC...the day before that,we kinda fought rite...i spoke something that hurt ur feelings huh...well...it kinda hurt mine too...during our trip..all that i was thinking was to walk with u...but my plan failed...coz u kept running off on ur own...well,i thought that u were still mad...so,i back off....

to tell u the truth...that's why i always looked so serious in skool....i dun want anyone to know wut i was feeling...

moving on...while we were having our pps camp...seriously...i was really worried when somebody told me that u cried on that friday nite...same goes when we were having our camp ibadah...but i couldnt say much could i? haha...but it's ok though...coz u were surrounded with many people who loved u and since last year,i always had the thought that u dun need me...so,it's not my job to comfort u...though i wanted too...but i cant...haha...

then,one week before our raya holidays...u called me in class...and explain that 'he' has crush ur heart...trust me,if i was holding a glass,that glass would break...to c u in that condition,trust me...it hurts...i always wanted u to be happy...even if it means if i have to watch u from afar...i felt really stupid at that time coz i couldnt say or do anything...i could only watch...but u got better...but i was still worried and kept a close eye on u...finally..the big moment...

our trials...u were acting weird from the start...but...i always thought that u were weird so i didnt pay any attention to it....up until the physics paper...i thought in my head,"wut is wrong with this woman?"...haha....then,bla...bla...bla....i finally understood...

that's the starting huh?....up until now....let's juz c how far we can go...

Now I’m about to give you my heart

But remember this one thing

I’ve never been in love before

So you gotta go easy on me

I heard love is dangerous

Once you fall you never get enough

But the thought of you leaving

Ain’t so easy for me

Don’t hurt me

Desert me

Don’t give up on me

What would I wanna do that for?

Don’t use me

Take advantage of me

Make me sorry I ever counted on you

1,2,3,4 to 5 baby, I'm counting on you

Understand I’ve been here before, thought I found someone I thought I finally could adore

But you failed my test, got to know her better so I wasn’t the only one

But I'm willing to put my trust you, baby you could put your trust in me

Just like a count to 3, you can count on me and you're never gonna see

No numbers in my pocket.

Anything I’m doing girl I'll drop it for you

Cuz you’re the one I'm giving my heart to but I gotta be the only one

I really hope you understand

That if you wanna take my hand

You should put yours over my heart

I promise to be careful from the start

I trust in you with love in me

Very very carefully

Never been so vulnerable

Baby I'll make you comfortable

Rain...

June’s lies and the truth in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
Nestling close to one another, warmth; I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” you said, forcing it upon me and then you said goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

Endlessly ringing; the merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me
If I close my eyes they will only grow surrounding me at a distance; your laugh

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? Why does it chooses me who has nowhere to escape to?

Time intrudes on the new morning I finally found
The direction I face is not the future, I kept chasing after the past

You, who gave me a new start by your consolations and the hateful and cowardly me
It’s about time… Fumbling, my troubles spill down my tired cheeks

Eyes that don’t want to know the past and fingers that can wash it all away
Scars heal at a gentle pace; at an unreachable distance that seems to be within reach

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain chooses to fall on me? I wonder if it’s okay to let myself drown in it

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end
While we quietly nestle together with warmth under the umbrella I hold

Invisible...

I can feel you all around
In the silence I hear the sound
Of your footsteps on the ground
And my heart slows down

Something's changing deep inside
All my hopes are comin' alive
As we're fading into the night
I can see your eyes

You're all that i can see in the darkness

Believe we make this

All that we want it to be

We can stay here forever

Cause when we're together

Stuck in this fantasy

I don't want to leave..

So now I'm..

I'm waiting for the moonlight
So I can find you
In this perfect dream
Don't think that you can
Hide there in the shadows
Girl your not invisible
Your all that I can see..

*This is juz a start-up...the official one that i should write for you,may take a while...haha

Trials!

Fuh! setakat ni memang susah gle ar! BM pon dh susah...x lg BI...aduhai...xleh ckp ar pasal sub lain...memang habis pening kepala!

x habis lg kira ni...physics lusa...habis la...physics antara yg aku lemah...tapi kena la cuba dulu sblum give up,tol? haha...tapi...walaupon masa exam,minda aku x pernah tenang....

benda2 ni x pernah kluar dari minda aku....ada gak benda2 baru yg aku sedar...ada yg kwn yg aku percaya...jadi makin x percaya...ada gak beberapa yg tbe2 jadi yg aku percaya...tapi,mcm biasa...mayb aku yg silap...aku x tahu cmne nk kekalkan persahabatan...hampir smua,aku cuma hancurkan je...aku x pandai jaga kot...

sori nadia...aku x leh teruskan ngan 'dia'....aku hargai apa yg ko dh buat tok aku slama ni...tapi...aku x rasa aku leh teruskan...

esok gi rumah pirol lak...harap aku leh teruskan...

doakan aku berjaya 4 trials ye...

Wouldn't Change A Thing..

It's like, she doesn't hear a word I say

Her mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like all she wants is to chill out

I'm serious

She makes me wanna pull all my hair out

I'm always in a rush and interrupted

Like she doesn't even care

I'm always trying to save the day

Just wanna let my music play

She's all or nothing

But my feeling's never change

Why can't she try to read my mind?

I try to read her mind

It's not good to psychoanalyze

She tries to pick a fight to get attention

That's what all of my friends say

You, me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

When I'm yes, she's no

When I hold on, she just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

but you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

Hah..she keeps being in my mind...she makes me worry...why can't she tell if she's mad? I've juz gotta be patient...

The holidays...so far..boring...but i was looking for it...i juz want some peace and quiet...but it's only gonna last for 7-8 more days? Shoot...Raya is coming...hope i can make it through...hah..so i went to the book fest at kllc today...wow..cant believe we had to buy a ticket juz to get in...it was a late invitation so i went with my 'sis'...well...she didnt have any one to go wtih her...so,i went with her instead...that place reminds me of something...sad though...anyway...funny thing was,she change my family's mood...tq diyanah...i was looking something to lighten up my family's mood...didnt think it was her...so,i walk with her all around the exhibition...finally,i found the latest darren shan book..at 1st,i didnt think i want to buy it...but,she said,it's best to buy even if it reduces only bout RM10...well,the book was expensive..but im the type who likes to buy the 1st and last collection...i want to keep it as a memory..after buying the book...i went home but she stayed to wait for her bro...

That's the story so far...boring rite? Im not into this love this so much anymore..after i've been crushed so many times...but im still looking...like this girl im constantly thinking bout...well,like in David Archuleta's new song, "There's something bout love that breaks your heart...it sets you free..There's something bout love that tears you up...you still believe..but don't give up..There's something bout love.."

Sambutan Merdeka

Wah...memang meriah betol hari ni...mcm2 persembahan...1st...a. samad said(yg akmal pernah panggil future aku) dtg tok beri pengalama dia...sorg yg dh berumur 70 tahun...mesti la tahu bnyk...memang best ar sketsa pn zaleha...apa dh ayat haziq..."buka puasa dgn madu,belum cuba belum tahu"? haha..mcm2 la diorg tu...pastu masuk philharmonic punya group...fuh...dia memang menawan...tergamam aku kat situ...lepas smua tu,masuk kelas...

smua pakai menawan2...thx kepada yg memberi pujian kepada aku...korg pon nmpk menawan...ambik2 gmbr sampai la habis skolah...well,kecuali time physics yg memang tension...but cikgu tu berniat baik...dia minta hafal 10 ayat dlm masa 10 min...bunyi gle kan? tapi kte dpt buat gak...separuh..haha...but,cikgu terima je...kemudian main scrabble ngan hannah..agak kekok la coz aku memang x bnyk ckp ngan dia...tapi dia insist..join jela...satu benda je aku menyesal...x bergmbr ngan dia..aduhai...aku x nk nmpk desperate...tu aku buat bodo je...tapi aku dh wish gud luck kat dia smlm...

You don't run with the crowd

You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
That's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that can compare

You got something so real
You touched me so deep
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You've won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

What makes you different,makes you beautiful
What's there inside you,shines through to me
In your eyes I see,you're all I need,
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

You don't know how you touched my life
In so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me

Toumei Datta Sekai...

What did I really lose on that day?

I forgot long ago

We lost sight of each other in the twilight

What's more; we were unable to return

Somewhere our brittle, broken hearts

Try to hide behind strong words

Try to hide

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

Even in a world where you no longer exist, I will run

Passing through each day's pain

Passing through

The scent of grass of the broken glass in the “wounded” summer

Hey, where are you now?

In the time you have hated muddy water which was clean before

I have grown up

The reflection from the surface of the water was wobbling

Even now, the light still shines

The light still shines

Farewell, we waved hands that day

What had changed you

And yet, I’m still living

Overcoming my urge to cry in the night

What did I really lose on that day?

Farewell, although we couldn't be together

We will carry on

I’ll make the world run

Someday when I see through the future

Seeing through