A Heart...

What is it actually? Im not so sure about it myself...since this few months i've been called with such names...weak...useless...loser...what else? all of it describes me...

It's not far from the truth...i cant do anything right...everything i touched turns into a disaster...my results....friendships...relationships....all goes down into the drain...

So-called friends..."u can talk to me...i'll listen" im sick of hearing these words...does anyone ever able to keep their word? their promise? im sick of living like this...

Always scared everyday...always crying every night...seems like i cant trust anyone right now...i cant trust any word they say to me anymore...

Once i've helped them,they just ran away with their friends...leaving me behind...i trusted each and everyone of them...

Now i dont even want to feel happy...why? because when you're happy,you'll hope...once the hope turns out to be a false one,you'll get dissapointed...

If you want me to be strong then you'll lose what u have...if becoming strong is in the dark,then i'll go to the deepest depth...

I may be useless to you...i may be nothing...i may be a coward...but i have a heart...and bit by bit,you are destroying it...