Deserve?

I read an article a few days ago about people being unhappy...and that article really made me think that i myself decided not to be happy...

It is also stated that when people decided that they don't want to be happy because they don't want to get their hopes up and get disappointed again...but it is not true?

Sometimes i just really wish that i could just stay in my room and never come out...sometimes i feel like i don't even want to see anyone...

What if i'm happy but others are not? eh Annisa? I rather be unhappy than to see her unhappy...

I don't even deserve to have people like this around me...they are to kind...after what i've done,i don't deserve anything...

Believe Me

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just saying
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one else is around
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me

He's so gone..

Insecure
In his skin
Like a puppet, a boy on a string

Broke away
Learned to fly
If you want him back, gotta let him shine

Here I am
This is me
And I'm stronger than you ever thought I'd be

Are you shocked?
Are you mad?
That you're missing out on who I really am

Now it looks like the joke's on you
'Cause the boy that you thought you knew

He's so gone
That's so over now
He's so gone
You won't find him around
You can look but you won't see
The boy I used to be
'Cause he's
so gone away
Like history
He's so gone

Wanted You More

I kept waiting on a reason

And a call that never came

No I never, saw it comin'

Somethin' in you

Must have changed

All the words unspoken

Promises broken

I cried for so long.

Wasted too much time

Should have seen the signs.

Now I know, just what went wrong

All the nights we spent just talkin'

Of the things we wanted out of life (out of life)

Makin' plans and dreams together

I wish I'd seen I was just too blind

My heart was open

Exposed and hoping

For you to lay it on the line

But in the end it seemed

There was no room for me

Still I tried, to change your mind.

I guess I wanted you more

And looking back now I'm sure

I wanted you more

I guess I wanted you more

I don't need you

I don't need you anymore