3rd week...

hah! we r already having our exam this early of the year...saman the kerajaan la...kalau fail spm,salahkan diorg! hmph! x guna...it's already the 3rd week...time goes slowly 4 me...why do i have 2 c u everyday...well,i dun c u very often but...haiya...just get on with ur life...wait...probably i should do that...but i cant...cursed this mind of mine...u keep popping inside my head...even when im day dreaming...stupid affections...but when can i do? cinta bertepuk sbelah tgn...wut do u call it in english? "love clap with a hand"??? haha...i dun blame u though...im just not fit 2 be ur guy...let's face it...i cant do anything...even if i can,i might just mess it up...all i can do is just be silent when i met u...keep quiet...keep a low-profile...hold up all my feelings inside...crying inside...wutever....probably u're rite mirza...probably im the one who's leaving them...but...can u really blame me 4 wut im doing? i hate them...all i hold in my heart is just hatred and vengence...but i dun hate u...u probably understand a bit bout me...do u mirza? haha...wutever it is,it's probably wut u said melissa...i havent found my answer yet...but is it? or is it that im just 2 stubborn? bah...wutever...but i cant stop thinking bout the warm fuzzy feeling i had last saturday...a person got close to me and temporarily bcoming my 'mom'...well,i dun mind...when i think bout it,i kinda like it...probably i just like the attention...by being the youngest,i like to be 'manja'...but bcoz of my father that passed down his attitude to me,i like to make other people 'manja' as well...can anybody gets it? haha...but i know i cant ask that much from the girl...history might repeat itself...and she'll probably ran off just like the others...but we'll c how it goes 1st...and SHAM! apa la ko...ari sabtu ari,ayah aku leh hantar ko pe...best kot klu parents aku lbih kenal ko...diorg dh kenal nat,wafa ngan naim...diorg nk gak kenal ko...lg2,ko antara yg aku paling rpt...aku bnyk cte pasal ko...so,jgn malu!