Tell Me Why...

Tried to turn on my tv,

To get you out of my head,

Feeling something deep inside,

That i just won't admit,

It's not like i don't wanna commit,

I just don't know why,

I can't stop feeling like this,
Now i can see,

The storm's not gonna clear,

Dressed in my pain,

And all of my tears,

Tell me why,

Does it hurt so bad?

Tell me why,

Does it make me mad?

3rd week...

hah! we r already having our exam this early of the year...saman the kerajaan la...kalau fail spm,salahkan diorg! hmph! x guna...it's already the 3rd week...time goes slowly 4 me...why do i have 2 c u everyday...well,i dun c u very often but...haiya...just get on with ur life...wait...probably i should do that...but i cant...cursed this mind of mine...u keep popping inside my head...even when im day dreaming...stupid affections...but when can i do? cinta bertepuk sbelah tgn...wut do u call it in english? "love clap with a hand"??? haha...i dun blame u though...im just not fit 2 be ur guy...let's face it...i cant do anything...even if i can,i might just mess it up...all i can do is just be silent when i met u...keep quiet...keep a low-profile...hold up all my feelings inside...crying inside...wutever....probably u're rite mirza...probably im the one who's leaving them...but...can u really blame me 4 wut im doing? i hate them...all i hold in my heart is just hatred and vengence...but i dun hate u...u probably understand a bit bout me...do u mirza? haha...wutever it is,it's probably wut u said melissa...i havent found my answer yet...but is it? or is it that im just 2 stubborn? bah...wutever...but i cant stop thinking bout the warm fuzzy feeling i had last saturday...a person got close to me and temporarily bcoming my 'mom'...well,i dun mind...when i think bout it,i kinda like it...probably i just like the attention...by being the youngest,i like to be 'manja'...but bcoz of my father that passed down his attitude to me,i like to make other people 'manja' as well...can anybody gets it? haha...but i know i cant ask that much from the girl...history might repeat itself...and she'll probably ran off just like the others...but we'll c how it goes 1st...and SHAM! apa la ko...ari sabtu ari,ayah aku leh hantar ko pe...best kot klu parents aku lbih kenal ko...diorg dh kenal nat,wafa ngan naim...diorg nk gak kenal ko...lg2,ko antara yg aku paling rpt...aku bnyk cte pasal ko...so,jgn malu!

The 1st week...

hahaha...cant believe it...im already at f5...my senior year...my last year at high skool...a week ago i was kinda nervous to c my frens again and i was also nervous bout which class im going to be in...and as i hoped i got in 5 Dedikasi...from f1 to f5,i was in 2nd classes...haha...weird but i kept getting no 2...well,iman said that it might be my lucky no...but i dun believe in all that...but as 4 me,i think im really satisfied by just being no 2...just like in my science club,i got the vice president title...still,when i think bout it,if i were to be the president,i dun know if i can do it...but still,IF i got the job,i would still try to do my best...anyway,bout the 1st week...i got most of my sis's teachers,so i dun mind...im just worried bout my bm teacher...the 1st and the 2nd day,i was really quiet...well,i was nervous of course and i was a bit confused...personal problems...u dun wanna know...but by wednesday,i was a 'light' up...then there was our 1st PE 4 the year..it was fun...playing my fav sport : badminton...with hakim,jega and asfvin..hakim is one heck of a player...he got skills...oh,and thx sham 4 the thingy u gave me...it's cute though...haha...sori that mine wasnt so...how 2 say it? ehm..flashy? haha...still,hoped u liked it...finally came friday...me and the other librarians was needed after skool to clean up the library...so,me and some of my frens walked back to skool from McD...and it was really EXHAUSTING....Nat kept on talking and talking...well,it helped though...she kept us laughing...luckily i didnt past-out...i was afraid that i might collapsed bcoz of my blood pressure...but,i kept on pushing...anyway,when we finally arrived skool,it felt better...but it dint stop there...the next morning we have to meet up again to finish the rest...so,that's bout it...and next week,i got an exam...damn it...so,ciao 4 now...