Pathetic...

Plain old frens...or more than that? Is it every human like that? Giving false hopes? Like or hate? I dun know...Nat said that she might be my 1st love...from her point of view....i dun know...probably...i am a teenager now...16....as i remember i wasnt like this with any other girl before....in the past,when i like a girl...i try to get her to notice me...then,when she hurt me,i just moved on with another...it wasnt easy...2 4get S & W...but,still...this time,it's different....i just want to 4get her....like i did in the past with the other girls...but somehow,i cant...one of my childhood frens said that im loyal and have empathy...i dun get the empathy part but the loyal...i get it...maybe she is my 1st love...but how pathetic i can be? she's rite under my nose(well,not literally) and i c that she loves another guy...and,she's change...she's not the one that i've fallen for anymore... so,she treats me like a fren,and i should too...damn it....but seeing her being so different than before,is quite upsetting...listening,seeing her..haih..so,wut i should i do? Melissa,if u're reading this,i know u once asked me why do i think this kind of bullshit....i know,im stupid...but u,of all the people,should know how much pain i've gone through...i just want to get away from her...seeing her adorable face is just too much for me...the thing is,i cant blame her....it's my fault 4 falling 4 her when i vowed not to,last year...things happen for a reason they say...but maybe,her change,just happen...and,how 'lucky'...im still stuck in love and hate...pathetic....pathetic...PATHETIC!!!

*You broke my heart into a million pieces*
but
*You still manage to be the one in my heart...*