Hari Guru 2010 / Di Persimpangan Dilema

Wah2..lmbt sket post kali ni...hari guru yg berjaya dilaksankan lebih kurang 4 hari lalu memang lain dari yg sblumnya...mayb gak coz kelas aku buat persembahan tok hari guru kali ni...well...aku x berharap nk berlakon...dpt jawatan backstage pon jadi la...hahaha...bukannya buat kerja pon...but syukur berjalan lancar smua...

5 DEDIKASI!

datang2 skolah memang berdebar la gak..1st time buat show...harap smua berjalan lancar je...jumpa nat...haha...tengok2 nat pon sakit...tu ar nat..aku dh kata jgn duk ngan aku...tengok sape sakit...hahaha...jaga2 la diri ye...then,hujan rintik2...en khairi suruh buat kat mini dewan...pe...memang panas cmtu..pn siti sarimah akhirnya kata "hujan sket je"...jadi smua kumpul balik...kelas aku kumpul kat teratak kjap sblum bergerak ke belakang perhimpunan...pe...tarian Nicholas,Andrew dan adik Nicholas tu,No Stress,memang bestnya! smart gle tengok...tapi diorg nyer kena gabung ngan kelas akunyer..mayb coz diorg dh buat bnyk sangat tarian...babak pirol memang best! lagi2 tambah lagu kelakar/sexy! hahaha! sori ye pirol! masuk babak cik teoh pula...wah2.."dissapear2!"...aku memang xkan lupa la dia mengjar aku dulu...sbb dia gak aku dpt A dlm sej PMR....akhirnya habis...babak kredit tu la malu gle..aku x biasa buat benda2 cmtu...merah muka aku ble Neetasha panggil nama...then...lepak ngan sham ngan faiz....sambung tengok tarian 'puppet' iklil lak...fuh! memang diorg dh lancarkan! smart gle...ada la budak2 bising kata diorg bajet la...but aku rasa diorg jelez je tu...then kteorg diberi rehat jap...lepak ngan wafa...bukan main happy aku bg dia hadiah...ble ada org ajak dia nk belanja,aku bela ar...lepak ngan toyol jap...bincang ngan dia hal2 'penting'...hahahaha...x abis2 ngan syg dia tu...ish..haha....aku slalunyer menyampah tengok org couple2 ni...tapi ble ngan diorg...aku rasa kelakar...hahaha...mayb coz diorg berdua kwn aku...sesuaila...toyol patut terima laki yg terima dia..then sambung perayaan...MUSICAL CHAIR!

pe...pertama kali tengok cikgu2 pon mcm budak2 gak...tolak sana sini...berebut kerusi...hahaha...akhirnya pn ooi menang...aku nk en zaki menang...ntah la...aku admire dia...memang kelakar la dia...jalan satu kerusi ke satu kerusi...sengaja x nk bg org duduk ngan cpat..hahaha...dh abis tu..aku lepak kat bilik kaunseling...x tempat nk pergi...ini la jadinya ble kwn baik sorg pengawas...mkn kek..fuh! sedap! thx kpada sape yg belinya...aku ingat nk lepak ngan 'dia'...tetapi aku pon sakit...aku masuk bilik kaunseling...duduk...pkir..."pe...bestnya kalau dpt lepak ngan dia skrg"...aku bnyk day dreaming...aku mengaku...haha....aku duk je situ tengok mel,sham ngan nadia buat kerja...nk tlg...tapi mcm xde mood..haha...side effect ubat...otak jadi woozy...ehm...tapi smua tu hilang ble jadi risau...sape x risau ble org yg kte ambil berat tbe2 jatuh sakit...yg pelik...simptom dia aku pon pernah mengalami tapi bukan masa demam...masa mula2 'matang' dulu...skrg...x tahu la...x ingat last kali ble kena....mayb ada kene mengena ngan blood pressure gak kot...well...tahu ler...dia kata jgn risau...well...kte kena la work in 2 ways...aku jaga ko...ko jaga aku...hahahaha...agak x malu kan??? sampai2 masjid,tengok2 xde air lak...aduyai...tercungap-cungap cari air...nasib baik sempat...balik2...terus tdo...tapi memang x tenang...asyik2 batok....pe...menyeksakan...sampai la skrg...tapi aku balik2 rmah tu...tengok2 ada file lagu dlm received files aku...pelik...sape pula yg letak ni...kalau dia,memang make sense...but...agak pelik kalau dia nk bg...kalau sorg lg tu nk bagi...itu lagi x mungkin...ntah la...tapi sape yg bg tu,memang pkir gak pasal aku...ntah sape....tadi aku keluar ngan family...aku asyik ternampak bayangan 'dia'...ehm...aku rindu dia lebih dari aku sedar walaupun dia dh tinggalkan aku...teringat lak lagu ni...

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Sori la...

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox


The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and for deeds left undone. ~Harriet Beecher Stowe, Little Foxes, 1865


An apology is a good way to have the last word. ~Author Unknown


The only correct actions are those that demand no explanation and no apology. ~Red Auerbach


Apology is a lovely perfume; it can transform the clumsiest moment into a gracious gift. ~Margaret Lee Runbeck


Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ~Paul Boese


It's easier to ask forgiveness than it is to get permission. ~Grace Hopper


For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness. ~Author Unknown


It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend. ~William Blake


True friends stab you in the front. ~Oscar Wilde


Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things. ~Author Unknown

You can make up a quarrel, but it will always show where it was patched. ~Edgar Watson Howe, Country Town Sayings, 1911

Ehm...ni...brape bnyk aku ltak ni tok ko...i was being insensitive...im sori if i hurted u...

Replying messages...

Ini yg dh lama x ckp tentang ni...salah satu benda yg aku paling pantang...org x bls msg...susah sngt ke nk bls? lg2 ble ada kredit...tlg la jgn bg alasan mcm,"dh lewat ble aku sdr msg tu,buat pe nk bls"...klu xde kredit pon,tlg la bgtahu kat skolah ke,guna hp family member lain ke...ini buat bodo je...aku bukan main risau nk tlg buat kerja smua...projek...but buat bodo je...lg satu,org yg reply satu patah je...pe...memang aku benci gle ble org buat cmni...susah sngt ke nk bg reply yg panjang sket? ni jwb...spatah2 je..."x","ye","apa"...fine..tu mayb hak org tu...tapi pkir la gak perasaan org yg dia bg msg tu x boleh ke? aku susah2 tulis panjang2...risau...ambik berat...tengok2...kecik ciput je korg bls? haish...memang naik angin aku...fine la...aku tahu aku jenis yg x ckp bnyk...jadi korg x nk borak lama kan? korg boring ngan aku kan? ikot la..but for once,tlg la pkirkan org lain untuk seketika...

"Her Most Beautiful Eyes"

A few days ago..i watched one of the episodes of Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X..i got bored..so i juz opened up the channel...it was about Kenshin(the hero)'s fren,Sanosuke trying to save someone he loves Sayo from Tuberculosis...

it's quite sad though..the song Her Most Beautiful Eyes by Taro Iwashiro were playing the background...something hit me...how far would someone go for the one he loves...wow...love makes u do crazy things...i thought bout it...i once did crazy things...but in the end...nvm..i juz thought that can i do all that again...or im juz afraid of being dissapointed again...

Overboard...

It feels like we’ve been out at sea
So back and forth that’s how its seems
And when I want to talk
You say to me
That if its meant to be, it will be
So crazy in this thing we call love
Now that i've got it that i just cant give up
I’m reaching out for you
Get me out of here in the water and

I’m overboard and I need your love
Pull me up
I cant swim on my own
It's to much
Feels like I’m drowning without your love
So throw yourself out to me
My life saver

Never understood you when you say
Wanting me to meet you half way,
Felt like I was doing my part
You kept thinking u were coming up short
It's funny how these thing change
Cause now I see

It’s supposed to be some give and take I know
Bu your only taking and not givin' any more
So what will I do?
Cause I still love you
You’re the only one who can save me...

Rules or frens?

A few weeks ago..i watched the new naruto movie...its about naruto's teacher wants to sacrifice his life to save his village...even his leader,the hokage told his teacher,kakashi,to do so...when naruto heard bout this,he went after his teacher to stop him...everyone in the village,even his comrades tried to stop naruto from trying to stop kakashi's action...his frens keeps on saying,"it is the hokage's order not to interfere" or "it is the rule to obey the hokage's orders"...naruto didnt stop...he keeps on going to save his teacher...he didnt want his teacher to be a sacrifce...he said,"i cant weight any of my frens life on a scale"...and finally...when he finally saved his teacher...he said to his teacher..."how can i let you die?"...and the most touching sentence...he said to his teacher.."remember this bells? that day u taught us...'Those who break the rules are scum,that's true...but those who abandon their friends are worse than scum...' "

Since this few days...things happen...a lot have to dealt with...frens backstabbing each other...shouting from here to there...frens fighting with each other....it's heartbreaking...oh...and also frens doesnt protect each other...do we call that kind of action as our 'frens'? damn it...fine...i admit it...wut we've done was wrong...but we didnt do it 4 fun...we did have a gud reason...but that doesnt mean we can blame each other when we got scolded...shouldnt we juz keep quiet and protect each other when we got scolded and learn from our mistakes to be better in the future? it's a gud thing we only have a few weeks left....it's also sad watching frens fight with each other...one being jelez...while the other was being stubborn...in another case...one doenst feel easy...while one juz trying to do the best...haish...then,when one doesnt feel easy,they juz backstabbed each other...cant we juz try to undertand each other? we r frens...that's wut sad...im gonna make this rite...i wont abandon my frens...that's for sure!

Kem PPS

fuh...memang letih...mengantuk gle ni....rasa mls lak nk dtg skolah tapi klu x dtg,bnyk miss nanti...aduhai...pergi je la...hah...start kem 2 hari lepas...aku dtg dngn beg besar satu..smua tanya asal aku bawa beg mcm nak balik kg(bak kata naim)...aku bawa bnyk baju...tu je...aku kuat peluh sket...fhm ye smua? haha...dtg2 skolah cuaca redup je..hujan sket...x ikot sngt plan....dtg kul 3.30...tapi start aktiviti smua dlm kul 5.30...aku jadi imam 1st...aduh..memang cuak...takot suara x cukup kuat...main taram je la...pastu mirza kata aku jadi imam ok gak...so,aku pon pkir..."ok la tu"...bukan nk perfect pon...ada snek sket...biskut ngan teh...aku nk duk sorg...rasa smcm je...mai adira asyik panggil aku tok duk sebelah dia...aku tolak tawaran dia pada awalnya...tapi kali ketiga dia minta,dia kata,"jgn la duk sorg2...meh,gle2 ngan kteorg"...aku pon,"ok ar"...duk mkn ngan diorg jap..mlm tu,lepas smbhyg maghrib,ada bacaan yasin dan terus smbhyg isyak...then,ada ice breaking...celina buat game...group aku langsung x dpt teka apa2...aduhai...haha...oh,dan aku memang nk ucap sori sngt kat sorg ni! aku x sengaja! sori sngt...perasaan bersalah tu memang x hilang la sampai tdo..aduh...memang sengsara mlm tu...tbe2 lak kaki kana sakit sngt! ntah nape tbe2....masuk tdo...tapi x leh sngt..pirol semua buat bising(mcm biasa)...haha...xde la buat bising but buat lawak la...aku nk tdo pon asyik tergelak...tapi ble nk tdo pon,xleh sngt...kaki sakit sngt...rasa mcm dr house lak...aku asyik terbangun ar...pirol semua pelik,tanya aku nape terbangun...aku kata la,sakit kaki....then,sambung tdo...junior aku,yg tdo sebelah,buat lawak lak...pirol ar..."jom main golf"...hahaha! kesian dia pirol! akhirnya dlm kul 3 lebih,boleh la tdo...bangun pagi,smbhyg subuh,ada senaman...kaki sakit lg...ingat nk skip...tapi aku cuba je dulu...ble exercise,kaki dh x sakit...pelik la pula...mandi2,tengok2 aku ada kembar kat tapak..kembar laksamana...hahah! ada pertandingan buat mknan lak...yes,memang best...group aku x bawa apa2...aku ingat dh plan dh smua..biar la...aku x tahu nk buat apa,aku pakai bantai je guna apa2 yg ada...akhirnya dpt sesua2...at least x kalah..tu je aku pkir...then,kena gi library,ada pertandingan mcm2...sape cpat susun buku,sape cpat key-in buku...aku ni memang jenis slambe sket klu benda2 cmni...aku pon kata kat gang aku,"kte relak je la....take it slow(ayat fav aku)"...klu ada org perasan,waktu tu memang aku mcm slow and blurr gle2....haha....ble sham tanya soalan2 tu,aku nk jwb gak...tapi aku tgh susun buku...so,aku pkir,x yah la...fine,mayb some people kata aku takot je...slalu guna ayat poyo,"bg peluang kat org lain"...yes,aku mengaku...aku takot sket...tapi waktu tu pon otak aku ada mcm2...kan dh kata rasa smcm...ble nk tdo mlm jumaat tu pon,x leh...habis semua tu...gi mkn..nasi ngan ayam kari...xde mood sngt nk mkn...jadi,mkn sket je...memang aku nmpk mcm mkn smua sbb lama gle aku mkn...tapi aku mkn separuh je...aku bnyk pkir waktu tu...tu aku duk sorg tu...gi library jap,tlg mai...then,kte buat rehearsal tok mlm kebudayaan...akhirnya,dpt gak nyanyi sama2...dh abis rehearse,boleh main sukan tapi hujan...aku balik ke blik nk tdo...pirol smua gi main la sport...nmpk mul sdap je tdo...maklum la..cuaca sejuk...aku tdo kejap je..dlm 30 minit je kot...bangun2...memang rasa smcm je lg terok...aku kluar dari bilik...ingat nk gi tengok pirol smua main basket..ingat leh la cheer up sket..sampai kat kantin...tmbh terok...memang kelakar tengok dia main..apatah lg naim ada..haha...dlm beberapa minit duk kat court...memang xleh tahan dh waktu tu...aku lari dari situ...terserempak ngan nat lak..aku elak dari biar dia nmpk muka aku...jln gi kat tepi padang...memang dh x tahu nk buat apa waktu tu...x tahan sngt...nk ckp ngan sape la waktu tu...memang serabut...asyik terpkir kata2 mel...lg x leh tahan..abg iskandar dtg...dia memang baik ngan aku...bg bnyk advice...dia tanya nape ngan aku...aku x dpt jwb...aku kata xde apa...tapi dia nmpk gak...thx sngt2 kepada kwn aku ni yg berada bersama aku waktu tu...thx kpada ko,aku tenang sket..habis practice,smbhyg,mandi...dan akhirnya..jeng3...show time!

(aksi gle)

pe...memang malu gle...but,syukur alhamdullillah...aku dpt buat...group dana la best...memang pandai berlakon dan penggunaan lagu yg sesuai...ble group wafa,dia kata dia dedicate lagu dia kpada seseorg..ehm...klu aku tahu leh buat cmtu,aku pon nk kata aku nk dedicate lagu kpada someone..aiya...xpela...then main OBH..kelakar la ko suben...ko x pandai tipu la...klu kte kat luar skolah,xkan ada lantai simen kot...lg2,boleh dngr suara 'hantu' tu...but ada yg menjadi...mcm lieyana,sham,iman(kot)...tapi x sedar sngt...waktu aku tgh tdo..hahaha...sori ye 'hantu2' ku...then,gi tdo...dpt tdo awal sket...kaki dh x sakit..ok la...akhirnya,final day....bangun gi smbhyg subuh...bak kata uztaz zaki..."2 kerat je yg dtg"...haha...uztaz pon tergelak...dia gi bilik laki kejutkan sendiri...ada senaman sket sblum mkn biskut ngan minum milo...kemas library...mandi...then prepare nk balik...ada meeting jap....memang sedih la waktu tu...aku memang terkejut...mulut ternganga...rasa mcm masa terhenti...aku x sanggup pandang...gaduh2...aku dh penat tengok...dh bnyk kali tengok..sape nk ckp aku lembut,ckp la...but,waktu tu...memang air mata nk kluar...memang sedih tengok kwn2 bergaduh...tapi aku nmpk bukan aku sorg je yg sedih...gi luar jap...aku genggam je tgn kuat...elak dari air mata mengalir...sbb time tu pon nmpk kwn tgh sedih...masuk balik,diorg dh tenang..time tok balik...ambik gmbr jap ngan gang f5..untuk kenangan...

akhirnya balik...fuh...memang letih....tujuan aku gi kem ni bukan je tok spend time ngan kwn2,belajar balik kerja2 pps...tapi tok kenal pasti balik nape aku pilih jadi pps...and mayb aku dh ingat sket nape...thx guys and girls....

Until next time...