When the one you want doesn't want you...

When you come back I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no it's not your fault

I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something that I've just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in,
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was next to you
'Cause someone else was on your mind
In your head...

When I came to see her she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call.....

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you............

Where do i go?

Where do I go?
Every direction seems to be against the flow
And who will I be?
What does it mean to just be me?

Did I let you down?
My good intentions never seem to come around
And I have to believe
That there's an answer I can see

So tired of havin' to choose
Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do?

I can't tell what's up or down
My head's spinnin' all the time
Every time that I turn around,
There's another useless sign
I wanna know but I don't know
Which way I'm gonna go
Where will I go?
Which way will I go?

Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?

The Truth?

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Specially for you...

You know I try to be
All that I can
But there's a part of me
I still don't understand
Why do I only see
What I don't have
When my reality
Its things are not that bad

I never saw the way
You sacrificed
Who knew the price you paid
How can I make it right I know I've gotta try
Your faith has shown me that
And I hope that you can see
You're everything that I wanna be

When my world goes crazy
You won't let go
When the ground gets shaky
You give me hope
When I try to push you away
You never move
Now when I start doubting and
You help me see
There's a strength, and a mind, and a power in me
Oh believe me there ain't nothing I can't do
My hero is you...

Girl..Im the one....

I'm hiding in a bush outside your window
I'm feeling sick and numb
Fed all my best lines to my best friend
So he could be the one
But I'm jerk because it worked
And I've just realised what I've done

Guess I'll never be the guy to get the girl
Set it up so that he could rock your world
Promise me when you scream you fake it

So maybe I should just go home now A
nd let you have your fun
It doesn't make it any easier
I live across the street but one
But if that clown let's you down
Girl, you know where to come

Yes I could've been the guy to get the girl
Yes i could've been the guy to rock your world
But I'm not, so I've got to face it

can't believe you're at my door
Cos he confessed that he'd been cheating
Suddenly a chance for me to tell the secret I'd been keeping
I am the one

You said you valued his integrity
And honesty is rare
He swore to you he'd never cheat again
He cried and said he cared
Well, he's a jerk because it worked

Holly, I'm the one you should be dating
Seeing you with him is so frustrating
I taught him everything he knows
You fell for ever single line I gave him
He's just a fraud cos i'm the one who made him
He used to be my best friend now I hate him
And it sucks that he won
Cos he's a jerk and you're amazing
I know that I'm dumb
But girl ... I'm the one....

Memories

In this world you tried
not leaving me alone behind
There's no other way
I prayed to the gods let her stay
The memories ease the pain inside,
now I know why

Made me promise I'd try
to find my way back in this life
I hope there is a way
to give me a sign you're ok
Reminds me again it's worth it all
so I can go home

All of my memories
keep you near I
n silent moments imagine you'd be here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers,
silent tears

Together in all these memories
I see your smile all the time
All the memories I hold dear
Darling, you know I'll love you
'til the end of time....